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Thursday, September 01, 2005

Up to Your Nuts in Guts

In this humble offering I would like to turn my attention to the issue of HIV and unprotected sex. Given the title you may be confident that I will focus on anal sex between men or barebacking. Let me say from the outset that the sexual practices of the heterosexist majority is a matter for them and they have more than enough opportunity to discuss it.

Since the second wave of infections amongst gay men in the developed world considerable focus has been brought to bear on the subject of barebacking. For the most part discussion of this issue has been surrounded by not inconsiderable hysteria. In recent days your intrepid correspondent was party to a lengthy dialogue on this very matter in another place. Encouragingly it was a constructive exchange of views - something that is not common when it comes to this topic.

Members of the Safe Sex Taliban shriek wildly about the irresponsibility of boys who ride without a saddle - betraying a complete lack of understanding of what sex means to many Queers. Contrary to common belief it is not a mechanical satisfaction of physical desire but a complex exchange of intimacies between men. An opportunity for a shared experience, a change to know each other in a way that cannot be described in words. Failing to accept this deep need means that these loud mouthed do-gooders will always be bemoaning the increasing rate of HIV and other STD's amongst my people.

It is simply not good enough to be proscriptive in these things. The directive "you must practice safer sex all the time" is not realistic and denies our needs as real beings. As Queers we are marginalised and constructed as other. Society needs to be "protected" from us and it is not hard to see why many homosexual men eschew the latex barrier of the condom because it represents the very way in which we are isolated and made into bringers of pestilence, modern day Typhoid Marys if you will.

These matters are not helped by the ridiculous rantings of self loathing fascist faggots like Andrew Sullivan who insist that HIV negative gay men need to see more of us dying so they'll get the message about safe sex. Given that Sullivan has HIV himself, I wonder what qualifies him to preach to the rest of us like some swarthy Ann Coulter or Miranda Devine? Sullivan's claims are particularly offensive given that he even promoted barebacking way back in 1996 when he declared the "end of AIDS". This is the typical and wanton hypocrisy of the Right.

I'm going to be blunt about this: I hate condoms. Having sex with a condom is really not my thing, for the lure of pink-on-pink has been a central aspect to my sexual practice. However I think it is important to make how I conduct myself as a sexual being clear. Since becoming HIV positive I have found that I prefer to lie down with other HIV positive men. I have gone with negative blokes since receiving God's Holy Judgement on my sinful lifestyle but give this little white pervert a choice and he'll choose the boy with queer plague everytime.

In a previous post, my fellow Spin Cycle Blogger and known associate the Divine Bucko expounded on the subject of the bugchaser - that curious character who seeks out HIV positive partners for unprotected fucking with a view to contracting bum flu or at least the thrill of the risk. It amuses me to see how these fellows think they are such sexual devils. I find such types to be sad, pathetic types with no redeeming qualities. I encountered one in a pub about 18 months ago. He was quite brazen in his pursuit and was not impressed when I rebuffed his advances saying that it was my virus and I wasn't about to give it to someone who clearly could not be trusted with such a powerful weapon. So on the odd occasions when I do consent to fuck a negative man it's rubbers or no rooting.

But what of unprotected bum-fucking between positive men? Once again we positive Queers (even more marginalised than our negative brethren) are lectured one what we may and may not do. Of course unprotected sex between positive men carries risks. The risk of contracting or transmitting a resistant strain of the virus cannot be denied. The risk of acquiring other STD's (genital herpes, syphilis, chlamydia, hepatitis A and B and so on) must be acknowledged as well. As someone who has had more than his share of poxes, claps and jacks I can assure you that I understand full well what I am doing.

For me and many other positive men, this is an issue of self determination. I am tired of being told how I must take care of my health, what I can and cannot do. I resent laws that are made to control and contain me. If when I take a positive lover we decide to bareback then that is our choice. We are fully aware of the ramifications of our decisions and are able to take responsibility for them. Why is it that we who are articulate and intelligent beings are derided and condemned for wanting to exercise the same freedoms that negative people take for granted?

I find it loathesome indeed that academic types search in vain for reasons for the increase of bareback sex by HIV positive men. In one case it has been suggested that the use of protease inhibitors has so addled our deviant brains that we are no longer able to make effective "risk assessments" or that their is something wrong with our "prevention ethic". All rot of course. These are simply more examples of how HIV positive people are represented as dangerous monsters that must be contained for the good of society. Sadly these views are not uncommon amongst members of the gay and lesbian community.

I say this to my positive brothers and sisters. Do not be ashamed. Know yourself, your strength and your power. Understand that we terrify the heterosexist majority and moderate lesbigays, let us manipulate that fear to further our godless agenda.




At Fri Sep 02, 12:21:00 PM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

...let us manipulate that fear to further our godless agenda.

Nice touch MtD!

Excellent report. If two consenting adults weight out the risks and decide they want to get it on - then get it on.

But, I still maintain that the risks need to be weighed and agreed upon prior to the act. With that - there's no issue, it's a person choice, not a moral or ethical decision.

At Fri Sep 02, 12:32:00 PM GMT+10, Blogger Matty the Damned said...

Regarding the deleted comment

Here at the Spin Cycle we are committed to freedom of expression and we have a strict policy of not deleting comments no matter how mindless or offensive they may be.

There are two exceptions:

1. Comments which reveal a third party's personal contact details (phone number etc) which will usually be edited to remove the offending details;

2. Spam

Other than that people may make whatever comments they like.

I deleted the above comment because it was a spam message. We do not allow spam comments to be posted at this blog.


At Fri Sep 02, 12:39:00 PM GMT+10, Blogger Matty the Damned said...

Thanks Ronnie!

It's time we stopped letting the safe sex nazis dictate what we are allowed to do in the privacy.

HIV positive people need not feel guilty because they want to enjoy the same sexual pleasures as others.


At Mon Sep 05, 09:18:00 AM GMT+10, Blogger Brad said...

Hi Matty et. al,

Thanks for stopping by AIDS Combat Zone. It's good to find other activist blogs out there. I've linked to you and I'll be sure to keep up with your posts.


At Mon Sep 05, 01:18:00 PM GMT+10, Blogger Matty the Damned said...

Hi Brad - thanks for cruising in! I'll have a chat with my sister bloggers (Red Ronnie the Socialist Sissyfag and the Bucko the Depraved) and will have you linked to us in no time!

Fond regards,


At Wed Sep 07, 10:08:00 PM GMT+10, Anonymous Steve said...

I can not speak for the hetereo community but there are many gays out there who will bb you if you tell them your neg. They say they are neg themselves but they have not even had an hiv test done.
I think people are just tired in general that this virus has no cure to date and are willing to take risks.
Now you have another set of people who want to have raw sex with poz guys. These people are not yet poz but want to breed with poz men so that they can get "the gift".
Medical rags picture hunky men who are poz and it leads some to believe that all is ok even if you are poz.
For me I rather not give this gift to anyone else, it causes more hassels then it's worth.

btw, I loved the pic you put up there, I would love to send it to a few people.

At Thu Sep 08, 01:27:00 AM GMT+10, Blogger Bucko said...

Now you have another set of people who want to have raw sex with poz guys. These people are not yet poz but want to breed with poz men so that they can get "the gift".

Hey Steve-

Thank you for commenting on the blog, but where exactly do you get information concerning "bug chasers"? I am very much playing the scene down here in SoFla and can say that, to date, I've never met anyone seeking "the gift", on the contrary. I've met several guys who will say that status means nothing, then approach sex as if going into a biohazard environment. I have given up omn neggies, as I just don't want the trauma, period.

My own opinion regarding "bug chasers" was posted on this blog about a month ago. Check the archives for August and you'll find it. I personally believe that the whole urban myth of "bug chasers" is right up there with the alligators swimming in the NYC sewers. I'll not deny that there may be a few psychopaths out there (anything's possible) but I've never actually met one. Maybe they all perty with Bigfoot and Nessie?


At Thu Sep 08, 04:14:00 AM GMT+10, Anonymous Steve said...

What I wrote about those neg guys seeking to be seeded by poz men has been from my own personal experience
as I have been approached several times and so have a few of my poz friends by neg guys wanting to get the "gift". My friends and I talk openly about it amongst ourselves and quite frankly we find it irresponsible to be giving out something we did not want to begin with.
There are "bug chasers" out there, I am surprised you have not met any yet. I'm sure they are not all in my neck of the woods. If so I'll send them your way.

At Sun Feb 01, 05:05:00 AM GMT+11, Blogger apostle said...


is being proven by the more than 400 individuals who have taken a dose of 60 ml three times daily for 21 days. The result is that AMBUSH 'KILLS' the virus by causing the protein envelope to rupture and the viral particles are discarded by the white blood cells. AMBUSH is able to 'KILL' the virus that are 'hiding' in the lymph system by its 'natural radioactive' properties. This process allows the body to 'return to normal health' with a corresponding immunity to that or those strains of the virus.

What is AMBUSH ?
AMBUSH is a radioactive isotope of uranium that is found in the 'palm' plant of which there are more than 3000 species. When ingested, AMBUSH causes the body temperature in the trunk area to rise to about 102 degrees when the individual is sleeping. The preparation takes four hours per batch, which is then given to the individuals for consumption 60 ml three times daily for 21 days. AMBUSH is a herbal preparation in this form but it contains an active ingredient which is a 'NEW' crystalline substance, a drug from the 'palm plant' similarly to ASPIRIN originating from the willow tree bark

After 21 days on AMBUSH, ALL the individuals experienced a decrease in viral load to undetectable, an increase in cd4, increase in RBC, an improvement in general health such as more color to the face, decrease in Buffalo hump, an increase in gluteal muscles, a decrease to having no joint pains whereby individuals can bend to touch their toes, and walk up steps are but a few examples. There is also a dramatic increase in their sexual appetite beginning after the first week of therapy

In any plant concoction such as percolated 'tea', there are 30-40,000 compounds, whi ch would take the scientific community twenty years to isolate one particular ingredient if they knew what they were looking for. The LORD GOD has given me seven steps to isolate the active ingredient, which is soft and metallic in nature and has a carbon- uranium-sulfur-(classified)-phentolamine configuration or structure. This is similar to Federick Kekule and the discovery of the benzene ring where he dreamt the structure.

As an antiviral and 'natural radioactivity' producing agent, AMBUSH is also effective against leukemia, lupus and HPV. Here I am saying that I have 'GIVEN' AMBUSH in the same 'strength' and dosage to patients with leukemia, lupus and HPV. A 35 year old male with HIV found it difficult to impossible to urinate was put on 'green tea' and water while the doctors contemplated prostrate surgery. One of the doctors gave him my number , I sent him a supply of AMBUSH an d he has not been given any more ARV's, since taking AMBUSH 18 months ago, is in 'good' health and has expressed a willingness to be examined by HIV investigators like many others who have taken AMBUSH.

I have sent this 'IDEA' to most HIV research agencies, scientist of the field, universities, hospitals, clinics, politicians and news agencies to which it is REJECTED because the name of THE LORD GOD is mentioned. He has steered me scientifically through the processes such as which plant and how to produce the active ingredient. What are the odds of a Florida Pharmacist picking a plant would contain the CURE for HIV/AIDS ?
I have never charged any of the people for their supply of AMBUSH but a life saving has been spent on the project with NO renumeration from any sources because AMBUSH falls outside the walls of modern medicine and research.


My proposal is that I PROVE that AMBUSH CURES HIV/AIDS by giving it to a number of END-STAGE or DRUG-RESISTANT people and the scientific community watches their recovery. This proposal addresses the problem in that I have already outlaid the results to be obtained.

This IDEA is unconventional in that the scientific community has rejected AMBUSH because I say it is GOD given. Secondly if I wrote it according to certain standards, then it might be peer reviewed. However, THE LORD GOD has also shown me that there are five enzyme systems associated with the virus, reverse transcriptase, protease, fusion and two more of which causes the virus to be AIRBOURNE. This means that without DIVINE intervention mankind and ALL warm- blooded mammals will be extinct in a number of years.

The PROOF of what I am saying is found in scientific papers wherein it is found that when the protease cuts the viral strands, it cuts it at DIFFERENT lengths EVERY time, to which it should always be a valine at the end but is a different amino acid every time. This is why it is IMPOSSIBLE to produce a VACCINE.

Since this is NOT a hypothesis but there are about 400 individuals who have taken AMBUSH, here lies a vast area in which to check, recheck and confirm that AMBUSH CURES AIDS. Let it be mentioned that during the HIV reproductive cycle, reverse transcriptase converts viral RNA into DNA compatible to human genetic materials. Thus the human DNA has been 'hijacked' and since each person has a DIFFERENT DNA, then the new viral copy is unique to that person which shows that each individual has a DIFFERENT STRAIN of the virus. Consider two HIV positive people swapping viral strains and increasing its complexity with multiple partners.
It can also be proposed that they be revisited as proof that the strain or strains that they had were 'killed' at the time of taking AMBUSH considering that a person can catch as many different strains as there are people who are infected by HIV.
I am also willing to work with the scientific community in identifying those individuals who took AMBUSH and wish to be identified with this process notwithstanding that some are stigmatized while others are jubilant,

Once AMBUSH is verified as being able to accomplish that which is aforementioned then the next stage might be the natural and artificial synthesis of the substance.

Finally, if this is accepted or not, believed or not, THE LORD GOD always wins and this is the heavenly truth to which AMBUSH was divinely given to mankind for the CURE of HIV/AIDS and it will be here forever. Apostle Shada Mishe.

Here is a video taped presentation that I gave at t he Martin Luther King library in Washington

At Sun Feb 01, 06:50:00 AM GMT+11, Blogger Matty the Damned said...

THE LORD GOD, huh? I can't understand why the mainstream ignores you either.

But whatever. There's a nice HIV/AIDS community on the internet that might suit your tastes. Just cut and paste this link into your browser window:

I'm sure they'll love you.

(Who really should lock these old articles)


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