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Saturday, June 03, 2006

Deep Inside Mancunt, or Titpig's Adventures In Barebacking, Part 3: The Sicilian Wedding Sheet



The next day I took a cab home from work so as not to waste a second away from Mancunt and see who might be on. I was in the deeps of several obsessions. Like a lash under my contact lens, G’s betrayal of me stung and burned with a blinding rage, but had you asked me about it I doubt if I was cognisant of any connection to that yet. I told myself that I was just horny and lonely…

Paging through the profiles, I came on something completely different from the usual posing and bravado and was most intrigued. It belonged to someone calling himself Pornandplayguy and went like this:

I’m not sure I’ll get any responses to this, but here goes. My fetish is for hardcore straight anal gang-bang porn and I’m looking for someone who enjoys it as much as I do. Anybody interested?

When: Right Now! Ethnicity: White
Where: At My Place Status: Positive

I get into: JO, Sucking, Fucking, 1 on 1, Group Sex, Voyeurism, Toys, Nipple Play, Rimming, Fuck Buddy, LTR, Friends, Dating, Kissing
41 / 5’9 / Muscular / Blonde/Blue / Bottom/Vers

There are very few gay men, certainly none of my generation, who had any exposure to gay porn growing up. The first erotica that we came into contact with was straight, to varying degrees of hard-core. My dad was something of an obsessive collector of extreme hard-core smut, including but not limited to heavy bondage, torture and gang-rape scenarios, both in the text and printed photos of various books cached everywhere as well as 8mm films which he would watch on our home-movie projector. By the time I was in my early teens, I doubt if there was an act possible between two (or more) of people of opposite sex to which I hadn’t been exposed.

My personal collection has always been rather heavily slanted toward straight action, with an emphasis on multiple men (hopefully European and uncircumcised) and one or two women. Very few gay men I’ve met share this taste, although I’ve met a few who tolerated having it play on the VCR because of the effect it has on me, which is like mainlining drugs. My heart races and I sprout wood just thinking of it, overwhelmed with an urgency to relieve myself as if it were the only option possible. But finding gay men who share this enthusiasm is exceptional, indeed.

I clicked on the profile and studied the pix. He was extraordinarily pale, with a skin tone more reminiscent of a termite than a man, with scarce blonde hair, so unlike my usual type of swarthy latins. His physique was magnificent, however, with heavily muscled arms, shoulders and chest and legs. His ass was a superb bubble. I sent him an e-mail and waited for a reply, which came in minutes. He enthusiastically approved of my profile and pix and would love some company. As luck had it, a new DVD he’d ordered online had arrived just that afternoon. He lived less than a mile from my apartment, so I elected to head over after a quick shower and was there in less than an hour.

His condo is in one of those buildings favored in SoFla that looks like nothing as much as a motel, with the second-floor apartments accessed by an exterior corridor running along the outside of the building like a long, deep communal balcony. I pressed his bell and was quickly ushered into a large room, lit only by the flickering, bluish glow of his television. The carpet and sofa were covered with bedsheets and assorted pillows and tuffets. A short stack of white towels was folded in one corner, with a bottle of poppers and several types of lube organized methodically next to it. His face set off a dim bell of recognition, most probably from some Sunday Tea Dance at the Jackhammer, which was probably visible from any window at the back of his place. He flashed a broad grin and complimented me, saying that my pictures don’t do me justice. Nor did his, I replied, tweaking a nipple the size and color of a pencil-eraser. With a firm eyelock, I moved in and gave him a deep, soulful kiss, reaching around and groping his perfect butt, giving it a hard slap through his nylon shorts.

With a minimum of fuss but a maximum of lasciviousness, I stripped off the board shorts and oversized tee I’d been wearing, settling down on the sheet with my back leaning against the front of the sofa, pulling off my sneakers with an impatient tug. He pushed a couple of buttons on a remote and within moments images of six buff Hungarians and one very beautiful woman appeared on the screen. P&PG knelt next to me and began sucking hard on my left nipple, pulling on the right. Spitting on my hand, I wanked his hard dick and reached around to check out his bright pink, hairless hole. Looking at the images of all that hard uncut cock and lean muscle, I immediately began pulsing and drooling precum.

Rolling my head and groaning, I reached for the tub of Elbow Grease, scooping up a healthy dollop with my middle and index fingers and pushing it into his eager hole, which yawned open with precious little encouragement on my part. Standing up, I pushed my ass into his face and lifted his legs, bending low and fingering his ass with first two, then three digits, digging and slipping very rapidly in and out. He reached up and pulled on my tits, his tongue pushing into my ass with a hungry wet lapping maneuver. Withdrawing the full length of my fingers, I slapped his asslips insistently in a volley of taps and probing fingertips. Repeating this for several minutes, his ass first opened fully then began inverting into a bright red rose of needy mangash.

The sight of his ass extending in full goatse, combined with the terrific sexual jolt I got from the images flashing on the TV tore through me like a chemical charge. Reaching for another dollop of Elbow Grease, I greased my dick and fell to my knees in a quick move, entering him with one long deep thrust. P&PG moaned and growled, inhaling deeply from a bottle of poppers he had nearby before holding the bottle under my nose. His face was a contorted mask of lust untempered by moderation or reason, as (undoubtedly) was mine as well. Veins bulged on his forehead and neck as he muttered nasty little epithets and curses. His powerful arms wrapped around my back, hands grabbing my pelvis to push my cock as deeply into him as it could go, our two wide open mouths meeting in deep lung-filling gasps, tongues exploring each other’s gums and molars.

Not wanting to cum too quickly, I eventually slowed down and, looking deeply into his blue eyes asked for a break. He got up and opened a couple of beers, the cold wet suddenly sweet against my dry throat. I commented on the quality of the video, which was excellent, and the quality of his ass, which was even better. Leaning back against the sofa, we spent several minutes giving play-by-play on what, precisely, we each found so profoundly erotic about the video. For me, it was the casual intimacy shared by the men, insanely beautiful and utterly uninhibited, leaning against each other or gripping each other’s shoulders as they took turns in various multiples fucking the woman, who was enjoying herself immoderately judging by her expressions and demeanor. The possibility of a slipped hand or the sight of two straight dicks meeting in an open hole is highly homoerotic, as is the documentary quality of men in erotic thrall inherent in porn. For him, it was the lack of obvious direction and editing that was so impressive. Everything flowed naturally, with a minimum of cuts and no off-screen voices suggesting the next position or combination of participants. These people were professional fuckers and obviously loved their work. The fearlessly uninhibited quality of the sex, sans condoms or any kind of safer consideration, is also electrically erotic, as we both agreed.

I asked him if he’s seen some of the more esoteric vids being released under such titles as Rough Sex, Whore Abuse or Cream Pie For The Straight Guy (in which a guy feltches his own cum, but not that of the other participants). As we talked, his arms reached around my shoulders and pulled on my tits, straining my hard-on to a constantly dripping, pulsing, needy rod. My hands kept busy on his hole, which was one of the hungriest I’d encountered in my life, and his dick, which was rock hard and ideally proportioned for easy and satisfying fellatio.

Our play continued through three or four scenes, rising and falling in shuddering ripples of urgency until finally, we could no longer hold it and let go, me planting my, and he feeding me his seed with an intensity beyond description.

After several minutes of moaning, twitching and jerking with aftershocks, I came to and suggested a cigarette, which we smoked outside his door, leaning against the railing, watching the hissing irrigation system spraying the landscaping fringing the parking lot below out to the street. P&PG made noises about follow-ups, some of which sounded beyond the parameters of fuckbuddyland. I got an uneasy feeling and tried to explain my state of mind at the time, ending with:
“Look, I’m not gonna lie to you. I’m having an insane time with you tonight. It’s beyond beyond. But I’m not emotionally available right now.”
He looked at me thoughtfully, inhaling his smoke and measured his words carefully. “It’s cool, Bucko. I just thought that such a good time deserved an encore.”
“I agree…I’m good for one more tonight, I think. Are you?”
“Oh yeah..”
“And we can set up something kinda regular if you like. Just, please, don’t make any emotional demands on me right now. I’m not ready.”
“Whatever you want, buddy.”
“Let’s get back inside” I replied, tossing my cigarette as far into the center of the parking lot as it would go, a mischievous grin lighting up my face. “I want to see the rest of the movie.”

Round two was only slightly less intense, and I finally pulled my shorts back on around three thirty, my having arrived shortly before eleven. I trudged wearily home and went straight to bed stopping only to take my meds and a brief shower, as I stunk of sweat, sex and Elbow Grease.

The next day was an unusual Sunday off (retailers always work weekends) and I slept in. After a pot of tea and a few cigarettes, I perused the threads on AIDSmeds and responded to a few half-heartedly and without much concentration. The little blue down-arrow button on MIE seemed to exhort me to push it and see who was trawling Manhunt. As my previous activity there always took place in the evening or early-morning hours, I was curious as to what I might find on a Sunday afternoon. But I’d gotten laid several days in a row, beginning to FtLJeepStud, and an uneasy feeling took root in my chest. What, precisely, was I exposing myself to with all this unprotected sex? Why wasn’t the previous night’s revelry enough for a day or two? Where was all this going?

Then I pressed the little blue arrow and clicked on Manhunt.

At first, I didn’t see anyone interesting. The crowd seemed older, with most of the profiles I found interesting proclaiming themselves negative or circuncised. I was probably on page twelve or thirteen when I stumbled on this:

Relax, It’s Just sex

Beefy bottom here, not looking for love nor running from it, either. But wanting fun, adventurous, dominant tops to play with and explore our sexual needs, can go from nice (Vanilla, kissing + cuddling) to nasty (oink) depending on U. Chemistry is key. Don’t worry if I’m not your type, it won’t hurt my feelings. Want to know more, just ask.

When: Ask me Ethnicity: Latino
Where: Ask me Status: Positive

I get into: Fucking, 1 on 1, group Sex, Voyeurism, Exhibitionism, Leather, Toys, Role Playing, Pig Play, FF

39 / 5’11 / Muscular / Brown/Black / Bottom

His handle is Btmman36, and his main picture shows him spread-eagled on a bed in chaps and a black jockstrap which highlights a magnificently full, round ass upturned for the camera. All of his pictures, in fact, feature his ass and thick, muscular legs as the main points of interest. Even his face pic shows him facing a mirror and wearing a cap, which does much to obscure his actual features, although his ass is displayed to full advantage.

I unlocked my private pix and sent him a note complimenting him on his derriere and inviting him to come over. His replies were curt but not rude, really. He was on his way out but would be back later in the afternoon. We agreed to keep a look out for each other and I bade him well, disappointed, but, since I wasn’t really hunting in earnest, philosophical and non-chalant.

Leaving Manhunt in one window, I opened another on MIE and returned to AIDSmeds, continuing to post replies with muted interest. Occasionally the blue rectangle at the bottom of my screen would flash, announcing a new message from Manhunt in my mailbox, but the senders were uninteresting and I ignored most of them, responding with a thank-you-but-no-thank-you. About ninety minutes passed this way when I noticed the box flashing with not just one, but three messages, which must have all been sent within seconds of each other. Reopening the Manhunt window, I clicked on the flashing red e-mail notification to check it out.

Btmman36 had sent a string of brief notes, asking if I were still on and if I might be available. The urgent, imploring tone contrasted sharply with the coolness with our initial communications. Among his notes was a request for my phone number. I smiled a private little grin and sent him a note that included my phone number along with a smutty statement regarding how much I was looking forward to seeding his pozass.

My cell phone lit up, jumping with vibration and sounding a loud ring within moments. His voice was soft but masculine with no trace of a Spanish accent:
“So you like small uncut cocks?”
“My favorite…What do I need with a fat choker?”
“Mine’s tiny.”
“You got overhang?”
“It’s all overhang, stud.”
I was getting all hot and bothered, my breath shallow and quick. “Get that beautiful ass over here, NOW.” I gave him directions from Oakland Park Boulevard, which is about two miles from where I live.
“Oh, I need to ask you…”
“Yeah?”
“What should I do with the load up my ass, wash it out or leave it?”
I blinked and mused on various possibilities for a second, “Bring it, we’ll figure out something when you get here.” I was rock hard.

He arrived in minutes, parking an expensive European SUV in my spot and bounding toward the high wooden gate to my garden, which I’d left open. His appearance caught me somewhat off guard. All of his photos had him regaled in an assortment of black leather accessories. But the man approaching me was dressed in full A&F drag, complete with a baseball cap whose curled brim was artfully distressed just so, chino shorts and a loose, pale blue T shirt. He looked as threatening and debauched as a bouquet of hand-picked daisies in the hand of a five-year-old. Taller than I’d expected, his face had the quality of an Aztec painted by Picasso, all angles and wondrously intriguing, but devoid of expression. Smiling and standing in the doorway, I bade him welcome and gestured him to come in with an open arm.

Entering in my kitchen, he glanced about and looked down into my eyes, scanning my face with an inscrutable passivity. Going up on my toes, I leaned into his face and kissed his full mouth, pulling his neck down to the height my head, my free hand reaching under his shirt and tweaking a very responsive nipple. Pulling away, he scanned my naked chest and pulled on my tits as if he’s been trained for weeks on the exactly proper technique, neither too hard nor too gently, with a cool professionalism. Opening the front of my boardshorts with a rip of Velcro, I ordered him to chow down with a pull on his shoulders. Falling in a squat with a “Yessir”, he took about half of my dick into his mouth and slurped, stopping only enough to spit a couple of Altoids into my trash. I leaned over and stuck my right hand into the gap at the back of his shorts, kneading his pliable ass and snaking down to his hole, which was wet and showing signs of recent use, open and inviting.

Jerking his face back with a grip on the back of his neck, I spit a big gob of saliva on his upturned face. Momentarily caught by surprise, his eyes flashed for an instant before his passive expression returned. “Thank you, sir,” he murmured. Leaning down I inhaled the spitball and kissed him deeply, growling.

Taking his head with both hands, I looked deeply into his black eyes. “Take those things off.”
“You wanna see my little boycock?”
Now…meet me in the bedroom.” I turned and walked down the short hallway, he followed me in an instant, ass bouncing. His dick, as promised, was exceedingly small and totally flaccid, with a long, thick foreskin nearly doubling its length. Bounding into the bedroom holding a bottle of poppers, he leaned over my bed, face down. I spent a moment spreading his cheeks and fingering his hole before squatting down and inhaling his dick from underneath, my tongue curling under his fabulous overhang, my own dick throbbing and bouncing off my belly. Ordinarily an unresponsive dick cools my passion somewhat, but his just incited me to a new level of urgency.

Standing up, I reached inside the cabinet of my nightstand and withdrew my tub of Crisco, slicking my hardon and rammed his pouting, slack mangash in one stroke, a grunt signaling that he approved of my rough treatment. Pushing his ass back against my pelvis with a squirm, he met my drives with vigor and enthusiasm, incurring several hard slaps alternating my palm with the back of my hand. Lost in the moment, I looked up into the mirrored closet doors and didn’t recognize myself. It was as if something outside of me had possessed my flesh and could only fuck and fuck and fuck…

We flipped around here and there, rotating positions at my request, frenzied in our thrall. At one point he asked permission to take a hit from the poppers he’s brought. Agreeing to his request, I took a hit as well. The explosion in my head was as unexpected as it was thorough, with a sharp ringing in my ears. I couldn’t seem to breathe enough and withdrew, falling on my back next to him, arms covering my face. My hardon evaporated as I moaned loudly.
“I should have warned you. They’re strong…I just got them in England a few days ago.”
“What the fuck?” My senses were only just beginning to return, heart beating as if my ribs would burst.
“You OK?”
Rolling my head and attempting to focus my eyes, I muttered something about needing some water. We were bathed in sweat, the topsheet drenched with perspiration, precum and palm-shaped Crisco stains. Raising shakily to my feet, I made my way back to the kitchen and took two water bottles from the fridge, opening one and taking deep gulps, regaining something of a balance.

Stopping first in the bathroom to pee, I padded back into the bedroom. B36 was sitting up, leaning against my headboard, my down pillows crumpled and soaked against his back.
“What” I asked, “Were you doing in England?”
“I’m a flight attendant and was in Europe last week. I just got back last night. Next week I’m off to Central America.”
An image, not entirely unsexy, of his ass stretching a pair of tight navy trousers meandering around an airplane flashed in my head.
“Must be fun.”
“The travel’s fun, but it’s mostly work. You don’t get to see much of most places.”
I nodded and reached for the can of Crisco that was sitting on my nightstand, rubbing a healthy dollop in my right hand. “You’ll probably want another hit off those poppers.”

He raised his legs and leaned back, nodding and unscrewing the cap from the small brown bottle. His sloppy open gash winked and puckered as if it were attempting to speak. I moved my fingers slowly but with determination until all four were in his ass to the knuckles. Meeting no resistance whatsoever, I paused to relube the back of my hand and thumb, twisting left and right and pushing another few increments up into him. Grabbing the back of his knees with his left arm, he inhaled again from the poppers and I sunk the rest of the way in.

I felt something gooey and clumpy, like clots of snots in his ass, lots of it. Withdrawing slightly, a big yellow blob slid past my wrist and fell onto the sheet. Quizzically, I looked up into his face, lost in the moment as fistbottoms usually get, and inched my hand back up to where it had been. Twisting slightly to the left, I stretched his hole past its elasticity and saw that bright red blood was covering the veins on top of my hand.

I let out a little noise and called his name:
“What is it? Am I bleeding?”
“Yeah”. I was horrified.
“Take it out slowly, it’ll be fine.” Then with a funny look on his face, he said: “I should have told you…I’m a bleeder. Just get an ice cube and I’ll be fine.”
I blanched. “I don’t have any ice cubes. I don’t like ice.”
“I’ll be fine. Just take your hand out.”
I nodded and gingerly withdrew my folded right hand. As I pulled out, a veritable puddle of the same gooey yellow clumps fell on the sheet, accompanied by an alarming amount of blood and some clear fluid I took to be lube. Looking down, my sheet looked like a crime scene, a biohazard of DNA from all over Broward County. Kissing him softly, I got up and washed my hands in the bathroom sink over and over again, feeling like some twisted Lady Macbeth.

B36 was completely nonplussed by what had just happened, sipping from the water bottle and asking me if I were OK.
“I’m fine, but what about you?”
“I told you, I’m a bleeder. I’ll be fine.”
Looking once again at the smear of congealing fluid on my sheet, I asked him exactly how many loads he’d had that afternoon (with all the playful tone I could summon), as he’d already copped to one.
“Three, actually. You gonna make it four?”

A dark cloud passed over my face. Anything approaching my limits had been annihilated, torn as completely as his ass lips. My hardon shocked me, but it had returned with an exigent ferocity. I was panting with lust.

Clambering on top of him, I pulled his legs up on my shoulders and stared at his blank face.
“Open your eyes and look at me, goddamit!”
His eyes snapped open and met my gaze, surprised.
“You want my load? Make me cum…”

To be continued…

154 Comments:

At Sun Jun 04, 07:22:00 AM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Oh my goodness buck-buck. What will the kids at Am think? I can't wait for reactions...I am going to hold off on mine.

Love,
H

 
At Sun Jun 04, 10:37:00 AM GMT+10, Blogger Bucko said...

Go ahead, Daschy-

I'm a big boy, I can take it as good as I give it...

B

 
At Mon Jun 05, 11:59:00 PM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

oh my fucking god...I have only myself to blame as you already gave me a heads up...but unfortunately I was having my coffee and breakfast (eggs, cheddar and sausage on a roll) and just reached the part of you discovering his yellow chunks as I bite one of those little crackle areas in the sausage.

I think I'll stay with salad for the rest of the day....

As far as the entry itself - Wow. I'll be frank and say that near the end I was wondering why:

- Why were you going into so much detail?

-Why by writing this and promoting it were you opening yourself to so much speculation and possible attacks?

But then the way you ended it left me with another why...which provided an answer to the above:

Why did you ignore the screaming in your face warnings and proceed to have sex with him?

It was then that you became everyman in my opinion. As how many of us (uhm...all) do things that make us question our own sanity - and afterwards we wonder "why?"

I realize that's your point (the quest for the why) as you say here:

"But I’d gotten laid several days in a row, beginning to FtLJeepStud, and an uneasy feeling took root in my chest. What, precisely, was I exposing myself to with all this unprotected sex? Why wasn’t the previous night’s revelry enough for a day or two? Where was all this going?"

When you think about it how different is your intentions to proceed in this situation with the bleeder any different from the person who gets married to someone they have every reason not to, or the person who stays in a job that she knows is killing her?

Your tale is a graphic allegory of lust over life.

Btw when I say this I mean lust being a generic label for the lust for anything whether sex, love, money, attention, etc. Over life means that it is the object of the lust taking a precedence (whether all consuming or out of proportion) to the person's life so that its pursuit is at the cost of other aspects of living.

 
At Tue Jun 06, 06:49:00 AM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Brent can you post these story links in the Aidsmeds off topic forum next time?

I let my teenagers read the Living With forum and I don't want them clicking over to these stories. I also don't think it's approprite for the Living With Forum.

I'm posting here first because I didn't want to make a big deal over there if I can avoid it. I haven't mentioned this to the moderators yet.

I understand it's a free country, but these tales should be placed in more appropriate forums.

Thanks, Brent
Cathy

 
At Tue Jun 06, 08:44:00 AM GMT+10, Blogger Bucko said...

Cathy-

As much as I can understand what a terribly difficult thing it is to raise kids in this day and age, I can only mention several things related to your comment:

1) By the time kids are teens, they are ready for frank discussions about sex, all kinds of sex. I know that YOUR kids are different (somehow they all are), but trust Uncle Buckles when he says that there is very little I discuss here to which they have not yet been exposed. Believe me, I was a Boy Scout. Shit happened that I never mentioned to my parents (involving the other kids, never the adults in charge). Let's just say that the three-fingered salute was definitely something of a joke.

2) I vetted not just the general concept, but actual specifics of several encounters, including the fisting gone bloody, with Ann, the Fabulous World Moderator. She agreed to my posting links between the sites after discussing it with Peter Staley himself. Any suggestion that the moderators are somehow too busy to have any interest in my smutty little blog is a serious case of underestimation on your part.

3) Exactly what part of WARNING! SEXUALLY EXPLICIT! was in any way vague or ambiguous to you? Or perhaps "You are also aware that the articles are a frank and explicit description of unprotected sex between consenting HIV+ men" somehow sounds like the minutes from a Methodist quilting bee?

Sudden controversy rearing its ugly head about something published on The Spin Cycle? Have you no knowledge of the history of our experiment in absinthe and anarchy? Please click through the archives beginning from the first post, my manifesto, which I shall quote in its entirety:

Welcome to The Spin Cycle. I'm your co-host Bucko

My co-hosts and I welcome you to our experiment in revolution and dissent. We each will bring a different perspective on politics, society and sexuality as it effects our lives as people living with HIV/AIDS. I won't pretend to write from anything other than my heart and my gut. I'll always give you the truth, along with way too much information. But that's how I've always been and have no inclination to offer apologies. And I'll only play the pathos card when it's in my best interest to do so.

My Manifesto

HIV and AIDS have been part of my adult life for almost twenty-five years. It has altered my destiny in ways beyond anything I could have otherwise imagined. It has touched the lives of everyone I have met since then, and claimed the lives of nearly everyone whom I've loved.

I have rewritten my dreams and expectations dozens of times in response to the shifts and stresses that the virus has perpetrated on my life. My goals in life have been fluid and relativistic. Aspirations are very different when one is not sure he'll be around in five years.
I have been hitherto forced into a permanently reactive position.

This must stop!

Beginning today, right now, I swear:

I shall take control of my life again. I shall not be bullied or bowed from pressures to conform to anyone's phobias or loathing of me, my actions, or my spirit.
I claim the right to dream of a future. I shall set and attain the personal and professional goals that I had written off or deferred as unrealistic.

I shall never again feel ashamed of my past. I have lived and loved according to my own rules, no one else's. It's time that I regain pride in my accomplishments and use them as a foundation upon which I can build afresh.

I shall call out the hypocrites and frauds who attempt to judge me without knowing me. Fuck them all!

I shall reclaim my sexuality. My libido is back, better lock the doors! Or better yet, come over and join the fun!

I shall pontificate as I see fit. If you don't like what I have to say, get you own damn blog.

I shall post my thoughts, feelings and observations as a forty-five year old queer man with humour and pognancy, each in their proper place. Sit back and enjoy the ride. A little anarchy and absinthe are good for the soul.

Oh, and Cathy, one last thing, dear. I choose to go by the moniker "Bucko" here on The Spin Cycle. If it doesn't flow off your keyboard, you can always try "Asshole", "Cocksucker", "Degenerate" or the ever-popular "Depraved". They all fit, Cathy. But reiterating my given name, Cathy, makes your comment no less ignorant of our purpose(s) here, dear.

Now go bake some cookies and tell the darlings that Uncle Buckles is a twisted, sick fuck.

Bisous,
B

 
At Tue Jun 06, 08:45:00 AM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

"I was having my coffee and breakfast (eggs, cheddar and sausage on a roll) and just reached the part of you discovering his yellow chunks as I bite one of those little crackle areas in the sausage."

LOL! I am sorry, and not trying to be gross, but I have always been pretty vanilla in my sexual behaviors, so may I ask, what were the little yellow chunks of? I am really not trying to be gross, just wondering.

Wow, Bucko, you have really taken us to a dark and interesting place. I was moving along your beautiful prose when the last section hit me like a ton of bricks. It is like watching a film where you see everything going in one direction and suddenly the entire genre changes, from drama to horror. I found it deeply shocking and stunning at the same time.

You have given us a glimpse into another level of sexuality, a level most of us never venture into.

I think that maybe you should think about writing more and perhaps creativing a novel.

 
At Tue Jun 06, 08:48:00 AM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Also, I wrote a little something to you, Matty and Daschund and the previous thread :).

 
At Tue Jun 06, 08:49:00 AM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Creating, not "creativing", sorry.

 
At Tue Jun 06, 09:06:00 AM GMT+10, Blogger Bucko said...

Oh! Iggy!

In my haste to respond to our charming Cathy, I seem to have neglected your eloquent assessment of my purile little ramblings.

You are right on target, doll, as regards the concept of Lust with the capitol "L". It is not within my abilities to learn any lessons other than through my own experience. As I wrote in chapter two, I needed to understand the mechanics of meth-induced sex without actually resorting to smoking meth. So I did the second-best thing, which is have lots of piggy sex with active users, which most (but by no means all) of my partners in this little experiment have been.

It was the Divine Marquis who wrote (and I'm paraphrasing because I'm too lazy to look up the exact quote): "A crime is an abomination only once, a passion only fleetingly and a necessity thereafter".

B36 remains an obsession to me, as he pushes my limits beyond anything I'd have judged possible just two months ago when all this began. So whether he's bleeding out on my sheets or puking on my Tibetan carpet (as he did the second time we met up, but it was because I was gagging him with my dick, poor lamb), I shall always forgive him and hold a special place in my heart open to him.

BTW- sorry about the brekkie, but I coulda told you that all those eggs and sausage were bad for you, luv.

B

 
At Tue Jun 06, 09:18:00 AM GMT+10, Blogger Bucko said...

Lyds-

I was responding to Iggy when your comment posted, baby.

The yellow chunks (blobs actually)were clumps of semen, dear...the loads unloaded up his ass about which he asked me on the phone before he came over, and the ones I suggested he leave in for later amusement. They slid out under my wrist as I...you DID read the story, right?

Hehehehehee-

I am glad that you experienced the narrative as I intended. One of my favorite moments of cinema, ever, was in Pulp Fiction, when Uma snorts what she thinks is coke but is, in fact, pure horse. her heart attack (and subsequent resurrection) are among the great moments of horror ever committed to celluloid.

And, of course, what I wrote is more or less how it all went down.

Lova ya, babe-
B

 
At Tue Jun 06, 10:26:00 AM GMT+10, Blogger Matty the Damned said...

I was comment earlier, but I figured that Bucko the Depraved would want first like of the blood smeared cock, so to speak.

Iggy,

Spin Cycle Bloggers are a brave and hardy bunch. You don't get a gig here if you can't hack criticism or aren't prepared to open yourself to speculation and attack from the narrow minded.

Fret not dear, Buckles can look after himself. He is, after all, a Yankee in the Deep South.

Cathy,

You know, the AIDSMEDS Living with HIV Forum is a pretty explicit place. Many threads are posted there that deal with issues of sexuality in a frank and graphic manner. Also issues such as injecting drug use and domestic violence get aired there from time to time.

If you're gonna let your darling offspring read there, you better be prepared for them to see some confronting stuff.

Buckles always publishes a disclaimer before his links. So you're kind of forewarned.

Besides, I believe the AIDSMEDS Terms of Service prohibits people under the age of 18 participating in the Forums, so this is really down to you. But report it to the Goderators should the need seize, dear.

We won't take it personally.

MtD

 
At Tue Jun 06, 01:36:00 PM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

It's not an appropriate forum for porn that many find offensive. I will contact the approriate people.

Thanks Lis sweetie :)
Cathy

 
At Tue Jun 06, 02:01:00 PM GMT+10, Blogger Bucko said...

Lisette, dear-

Welcome to the Spin Cycle. Your observation...
"Brent a lot of people on the boards agree with Cathy and she asked you nicely and you respond like some arrogant dickhead?

Looking at how ugly you are from your avatar on aidsmeds and others I;'ve seen through the years, I can see why you'd be such a bitter nasty person to a very nice lady."

...is odd, very very odd, lovey. I've been a member of AIDSmeds for less than a year. So unless your meds are so out of synch that the voices in your head are adjusting the calendar for you again, your first observation is wrong.

As to your reflections regarding my appearance: You seem to have missed a fundamental comment I posted here in response to the purile ramblings of Anony of "You're Depraved" fame. You have never met me and have no concept of my appearance. I could walk past your station behind the deli counter of Winn-Dixie and you'd never know me from any other skinny white faggot. But I'd recognize you by your hair net and the lovely smell of Brut aftershave that keeps the stench off your backtits.

So why don't you and your adorable chum "Cathy" resist the urge to click on the link? Are you doing Jehovah's work on the boards?

Who the fuck are you anyways?

Of course, thanks for commenting, and y'all come back agin reeeel soon nah, y'hear?

Bisous,
B

 
At Tue Jun 06, 02:16:00 PM GMT+10, Blogger Matty the Damned said...

Cathy,

You can either PM the Moderators or use the AIDSMEDS email. Alternatively press the "report to admin" button in Buckles' post in Living With. It's really quite easy. Even one of your kids could do it.


Dear Lisette,

Wow! You got through the Word Verification system here at the Spin Cycle! Good for you girl-friend!

Brent a lot of people on the boards agree with Cathy and she asked you nicely and you respond like some arrogant dickhead?

Gee whiz honey, have you read what we write here? What response were you expecting?

Looking at how ugly you are from your avatar on aidsmeds and others I;'ve seen through the years, I can see why you'd be such a bitter nasty person to a very nice lady.

Oh puh-leeze! Surely you can do better than that? If you want to swap bitchy quips with us love you're going have to pick up your act, dear. You'll be slaughtered.

I was going to keep quiet about this, but I think I'm going to complain too.

It's a Living with HIV forum, not a place to pimp links to your weird unsafe sexcaspades.


Uh-huh. Well we bow to your moral superiority. Nasty Buckles gave you and your Million Mom March mate Cathy an emotional ouchie. Well, you just run off to the Goderators. Maybe one of them will kiss it better for you.

I can just see you and Cathy, pushing your uberstrollers through the second hand outlets of America, crushing feet and taking names. You really are a force to be reckoned with, aren't ya?

Don't mess with a tough black woman like me Brent or my friends.

Lisette


Mess with tough black women? Seems like he's too busy fisting drug fucked latino-bois to bother with the likes of you Lisette. Still he does run a line in straight porn, so he might take a crack at you.

I'd love to see what you and your friends would do. Let me guess, you and your food-stamp queen posse Raneesha, Babi-Girl and Gorgeous are going to jump in the Pontiac, drive down to SoFla and wipe the despicable Buckles out in a drive-by, that's it right?

Kisses,

MtD

 
At Tue Jun 06, 02:23:00 PM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

There is no age restrictions in the Terms of Service.

Bucko I've seen your old Avatars too with your pictures and Lisette is not making anything up. I'm not sure why you are lying.

Cathy

 
At Tue Jun 06, 02:28:00 PM GMT+10, Blogger Bucko said...

And while I'm on the subject, ladies (and I use that term as loosely as I possibly can), just what, precisely, are your screen names on AIDSmeds? How long have you been pozcunz? Which meds are you on? What are your counts?

See, dolls, I don't believe that either one of you is poz. We who are understand that saints don't contract it.

But being God's children, you must surely know that as well.

Adieux, mesdames, vaches des bonne-femmes-

B

 
At Tue Jun 06, 02:38:00 PM GMT+10, Blogger Bucko said...

Jaser-

I find your astonishing eloquence in the face of these bible-thumping
cunts astounding.

Thanks for the brilliant post, babe-

Love,
Uncle Buckles

 
At Tue Jun 06, 02:42:00 PM GMT+10, Blogger Matty the Damned said...

I forgot about Matty the druggie. Should have known. Is he the one with the big nose and long hair? I'll check the forums.

Love ya girlfriend!

And Cathy I'll send note sto more peopel to report the post. I'm sure the POZ lawyers will have a field day over his post on an unrestricted forum.

Lis


That's me babe. Fabulous hair, a fitpack in each pocket and a jewish nose. You gotta love me. Thanks for the publicity.

No blogger can live without it.

MtD

 
At Tue Jun 06, 02:46:00 PM GMT+10, Blogger Bucko said...

To the legion of decency that seems to have (belatedly) found The Spin Cycle:

Please report me to the mods. I was given permission by the founder of AIDSmeds to link as I saw fit.

In your blind rage (fueled no doubt by all that blood rushing to your pussies after reading my purple prose), you seem to have not read that part of my response to "Cathy".

Mehgan...Lisette...what, you leave Latrina and Shequira out of it?

Bisous,
B

 
At Tue Jun 06, 03:03:00 PM GMT+10, Blogger Bucko said...

It takes a really open loving person like yourself to express such outraged innocence, Lisette, and with such simple eloquence.

Cliff and Rasheen (her name is Rasheen) are poz, which is more than I could ever say for you, dear. They are also my friends. You are just a bunch of pathetic outraged Christian fools.

Ah! I love controversy!

Bisous,
B

 
At Tue Jun 06, 03:11:00 PM GMT+10, Blogger Matty the Damned said...

Lis I deleted it too. Never name names! The kid thinks he shredded me to pieces? Ho! well I never laughed so hard when I read that!

Leave it to the free love Liberal fugly faglet to be the racist and the misogynist.

Girl too funny!!!!

Meghan :)
(who can say she thinks other black members of AIDSmeds would love to see the racist misongystic faglet on display)


Aww how cute megsy! A homophobic Ann Coulter wannabe. Tell me dear, did your pappy lube up when he visited your bedroom at night?

Or was it a dry-dock experience?

MtD

 
At Tue Jun 06, 03:59:00 PM GMT+10, Blogger Matty the Damned said...

Leave it to the ass-backwards Australllllllllllllian drug addicts to use phrases no one in America understands.

Honey, trust MtD when he tells you that it's not difficult to use phrases an American can't understand.

Lis you know what a slag or a kegger is or is teh Australian druggie just high again?

Meghan
(who needs to go to bed but is intrigued by the skeevy big-nosed Australllllllian drug addict.)


Easy babe. You and Lis are slags. And your children will be the entertainment at keggers. You know, those parties American University students go to? With the beer kegs?

Oh! That's right! University is an experience you'll never have.

At least not as a student.

Kisses,

MtD

 
At Tue Jun 06, 04:04:00 PM GMT+10, Blogger Bucko said...

Anonymous said...
Brent for your information there are thousands of black women who had relationships with men and became infected and now are living with HIV and expressing their love in lesbian relationships.

Brent I thought you were fair and decent but I can see you are really acting very racial and racist and anti-woman.

Cathy

You need to get out more

Mon Jun 05, 10:29:57 PM PDT


RonReaganJR said...
Leave it to the ass-backwards Australllllllllllllian drug addicts to use phrases no one in America understands.

Lis you know what a slag or a kegger is or is teh Australian druggie just high again?

Meghan
(who needs to go to bed but is intrigued by the skeevy big-nosed Australllllllian drug addict.)


Cathy-
This all started when, as an anonymous commentor, you took umbrage with the fact that I was posting links on a Living With thread from AIDSmeds. I expalined that I had permission from the founder of AIDSmeds specifically to post links as I saw fit.

You have ignored that point repeatedly.

Then you call in your posse of outraged women who have insulted us here in our own blog, repeatedly, using homophobic comments to boot. I have EVERYTHING saved, baby, even the stuff you think you've deleted.

So now you think I'm insensitive to the plight of women of color in general and women of color living with AIDS?

Where the fuck do you get off?

Vache de bonnefemme, vagins puantes-

B

 
At Tue Jun 06, 05:04:00 PM GMT+10, Blogger Matty the Damned said...

Fugly you are very insensitive to women of color and your remarks are misogynistic and extremely racist. You are a bigot.

I will make it my business to make sure people know this and can read it for themselves.

Matt you still make no sense even with your drug-addict explanations.

Then again it pains most Americans to try to understand Australllllians and their annoying accents when they talk so it shouldn't be any different when they write.

Meghan
(who couldn't give a shit what Brent has saved, because she has all she needs from this bigot right on this page.)


Oh honey!

It may have escaped your attention down there in the Projects, but this is a BLOG and we want people to read it.

That's the idea.

We don't mind if people find us offensive or challenging (and you're especially challenged aren't you love?) or informative or whatever. It's all good as far as we're concerned.

Now few other things:

First, deleting your comments. What you obviously don't understand is that I as a blog administrator get a copy of ALL messages posted here, whether you and your tedious mates delete the ones you publish or not.

So I know what you tried to delete. :-)

Second, I invite you to do your worst. Please, rant and rave. Email all your little buddies and tell them about how the nasty white druggo fags at the Spin Cycle posted nasty articles and then made fun of you when you object. Please visit every AOL chatroom you're a member of and raise a posse to show big bad whitey a thing or two. We can cope.

Third, visit us often. Comment whenever you can. We welcome all types. Even odious slappers like you. We've been threatened with worse by better babe. You should see the "fatwa" I got from some angry muslim last month. Or the ex-gay who popped in last year. By those standards you're a light weight.

Fourth, you need to know that screeching "racist" whilst spewing homophobic bile sort of undermines your position. We get called all manner of things, and racist we are not. But if it makes you feel better to call me a or Buckles a bigot, go right ahead. Clearly you can't match us for wit and venom, but you're angry and you need to get it out. We understand.

Now run along to bed sweetie. MtD needs a hit. ;-)

MtD

 
At Tue Jun 06, 05:14:00 PM GMT+10, Blogger Matty the Damned said...

Meghan sweetie go to bed and leave druggie boy and his bigot friend to their sad lives.

Oh and racist fuglet you received permission then but that should change.


Blah blah blah. The racist bogey man bit again. Change the record duckie!

You think you could have just said you had permission and approached Cathy with some degree of understanding but I guess since you are just consumed with your ugly self and nasty sexcapades you had to be condescending, misogynstic and rude.

The Spin Cycle permits anyone to say anything in the comments section. But we've always warned people that they are nowhere near as clever or as witty as they think they are. If we find you annoying or boring, we're probably gonna beat you up. If Cathy doesn't want her crotch-droppings seeing nasty things on the internet she shouldn't visit let them visit AIDS websites.

A lot of people use those forums and we show our kids sad threads like Matty's IV drug recklessness as a tool to explain why being a strung-out drug addict leads down a dark road risking exposure to Hepatitis C and infecting other people with HIV.

Yes, yes, Matty the drug addict. Oh the humanity of it all. I'm glad I'm an example to your kids Lisette. They can think of me when they're giving sloppy blow-jobs to truck drivers at rest stops for $5 a go. It'll be such a comfort.

Your thread is just bad porn and innapropriate. If you had kids maybe you would be respectful of that, but instead you just do what you want.

Well no Buckles doesn't have kids. But does the 11 year old Cambodian boy I've got chained up in the garage count? I mean I don't know if I love or respect him. But I've grown used to him whining in the dark.

Karma is a good thing and probably why you got that dick infection you asshole.

Love ya sweetie!
Lissy the lesbot


Ah! So this is what you REALLY think of HIV positive people. I knew you'd show your true self if we let you go on long enough.

Kisses,

MtD

 
At Tue Jun 06, 07:24:00 PM GMT+10, Blogger Matty the Damned said...

Racist degrading stereotypical comments about black people. You are definitely a bigot. In the US, comments like that would get your druggie ass fired from any job.

I'm glad you got three extra hits to this stupid website from the beautiful black poz gals from New York. Sad how the little things make people with no life get all excited about a blogger website.

You know I work for the same company that owns POZ and I can assure you it would take one phone call from someone in my position to have you and ugly bigot old man Brent erased from there in 2.4 seconds. That's a fact you can choose to ignore. I hope you do and keep up the racist remarks so I can follow through. That's part of the reason cathy IM'd me aboutthis whole issue.

I can assure you there are many who'd be none too happy to see that misogynist bigots are spewing racist remarks on a website that directly links from a Smart and Strong property. Lawyers especially.

Love ya!!!!
Lis

Oh and enjoy the BORING deleted comments.


The nifty thing about people who threaten legal action is that they never do. It is interesting that you mentioned people getting fired. You really should put the crack pipe down before you post dearest.

So, Lisette, you work for the people that own poz.com! Yay, Operation Bootstrap or however it was you came by meaningful employment, finally worked out.

You know Lisette, you do a lot of shrieking about getting us shutdown and having Smart+Strong lawyers whop our honky butts. I wonder how an HIV positive support organisation would view an employee who says blantantly homophobic and anti-HIV things about people, just because she doesn't like them. Go on try out your power with the man.

Similarly, I wonder if your bosses at the company that owns poz.com like the fact that you take their name in vain in your battles on the internet.

See, we don't have that much to lose in all of this. For us it's just the internet. We make no income from this. Note the absence of advertisements on our blog. We do this because we like it.

But it's your job honey. That's what you're putting on the line by slinging off on our little website.

So darling, please take this up with the Powers That Be. My rent and income or indeed that of any Spin Cycle blogger isn't dependent on any of this.

Can you say the same?

Kisses,

MtD

 
At Tue Jun 06, 11:36:00 PM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Oh my goodness buck-buck. What will the kids at AM think?

Didn't take long to get my answer did it? And just how many barristers(that's for you poo)do they have stashed over there in the Poz+Strong basement? C'mon girls the cat fights get sooooo boring when you threaten a shut-down. That is tedious and redundant...come up with something new or don't play.

H

 
At Wed Jun 07, 12:31:00 AM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Ladies. Calling people ugly and faggot demonstrates your limited intellect.

Maybe they sewed your weave on too tight and it cut off the circulation to your already undernourished brains.

 
At Wed Jun 07, 12:38:00 AM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

"A recent study in Georgia found out that most HIV positive prisoners had HIV before they entered prison. They didn't get it from having homosexual sex inside prison, they got it from the sexual activities they had outside of prison."

OMG! Now I guess your pussy ain't good enough fo yo man, so he keeps turnin to dick, even when he on da outside. You jus jealiss! You cudint keep a goot man if u tryed!

Okaaay!

Now calm down before I get ghetto on yo asss.

I will git up in yo bidniss. Okaaaay!

IF I want yer opinyin, I will ax u fo it!

 
At Wed Jun 07, 01:05:00 AM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

c'mon now don't go there...it is silly and not the least bit funny...and way too predictable.

H

 
At Wed Jun 07, 02:18:00 AM GMT+10, Blogger Matty the Damned said...

There will be no shut-down.

There will be no dilution of the good works of the Spin Cycle.

Those who oppose us will be broken and we will continue as we always have for we have all we need on them.

Such is the Word of Matty.

MtD
(Who can not be opposed)

 
At Wed Jun 07, 03:20:00 AM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Wow...

The racism on this thread makes me feel like it's Alabama circa 1952 all over again.

Its' been ages since I've seen such an overt display of racist bile being tolerated.

 
At Wed Jun 07, 03:45:00 AM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Okay now big doxie is getting pissed. You fuckin' skinheads thinking you have found some racist compadres here at the "Spin Cycle" are wrong DEAD wrong. You can take it from me...neither Bucko or Matty have a racist bone in their bodies. They are and always will be the strongest defenders of human rights. Two men more well versed and supportive of the struggle for equality you can't find. You assholes have come to the wrong place if you are looking for a racist agenda. Enjoy the floor show but play the race card somewhere else mouth breathers

 
At Wed Jun 07, 05:21:00 AM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

De-atropher, are you just mad because no one comments on your blog. Or should I saw blaaaaahg. Yawn.

 
At Wed Jun 07, 05:24:00 AM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

And how is calling someone "Babygirl" and referring to driving a Pontiac worse than calling someone a faggot or faglet.

And to do this while being a big lesbian is beyond me. You are still GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!

 
At Wed Jun 07, 05:39:00 AM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

"do you people have lives?"

I don't,I'm a big-fat loser with AIDS and proud of it. However, this has become boring and off topic and just not interesting. So let's all join hands around burning copies of "A Catcher In The Rye"and "Billy Has Two Mommies" and sing Kum Ba Yah. Catch y'all later.

H

 
At Wed Jun 07, 07:02:00 AM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Meghan you are right. If it walks like a duck and talks like one it is a duck. Matty probably spends his weeking with other white bigots bashing minorities in Australia.

Meg sweetie check your e-mail honey. Good news.

Cat ;)

 
At Wed Jun 07, 07:06:00 AM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

That's because the actual blog posting is vile.

 
At Wed Jun 07, 07:27:00 AM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

As a gay man living in NYC who has seen Peter Staley blanket our phone booths and bars in Chelsea and the Village with posters denouncing drug use (supposedly paid by himself), I never understood why he lets Matty glorify his IV drug addiction on Aidsmeds.

I understand free speech, but he should be responsible and chime into those threads or put a disclaimer explaining how reckless behavior like Matty's is.

Intersting comments section you boys have here.

 
At Wed Jun 07, 10:24:00 AM GMT+10, Blogger Matty the Damned said...

To enhance your Spin Cycle Experience, I have changed the comment method from page to pop up window.

Readers are still free to say whatever they want no matter how assinine it might be.

So back to the hair pulling ladies! :-)

MtD

 
At Wed Jun 07, 11:05:00 AM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Pete, also, I hear people from African descent using the N word, but I would never use it.

 
At Wed Jun 07, 03:38:00 PM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Meghan

I happen to live in America, Los Angeles, for that matter. I have a J.D. from a first tier law school and am working on my doctorate in sociology, so I know a little more than you do.

Notice my earlier post where I quoted actual research. You morons are really something else.

Sadly research shows that minority groups are often very bigoted against other minority groups. African American females are often highly homophobic. You are an example of that.

 
At Wed Jun 07, 03:45:00 PM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

"Lydia gays in the US call themselves fags to each other every day. Black lady lesbians who say fag and faglet are not homophobes."

Pete, there is internalized homophobia rampant in the gay community. Often times members of the same minority group
attack other members adopting the bigotry of the ambient culture. So, a lesbian calling a gay person a faggot is not okay.

Sorry.

 
At Wed Jun 07, 05:08:00 PM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

GOD

Cathy,
I will cast you into the pits of hell for allowing your 11 year old to read an adult only restricted site. I should have made you sterile. The details of your punishment are being devised by my Correctional Department - I will get back to you.

Bucko,
For your selfless and Christian behaviour you are to be rewarded:- for the brave act of shoving your fist up your friend's clacker to remove the impacted corn from his intestines you have been granted 10 days indulgence (you are a Catholic aren't you?).

But really, all of you - you're a bunch of dumb cunts - whatever was I thinking? I knew I should have made you all the same colour, sorry, I just got bored, pink's so.........well you know.........

So children, go to bed, get some sleep and dream a little dream of me.

love and cuddles, God

PS: I've read up to comment number 53 but I can't be fucked reading the rest, I've got a life to live besides the Bold and the Beautiful's about to start.

 
At Wed Jun 07, 05:15:00 PM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

PPS: It's all fun and games 'till someone fists a guy.

love and cuddles, GOD

 
At Thu Jun 08, 12:40:00 AM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Meghan,

I do not condone gays bashing gays. I do not condone minority members bashing minority members.

In case you weren't aware, there is plenty of case law where African Americans have been found to have discriminated against other African Americans in employment and housing based on their bigotry against their own people.

This is a fact.

There is a ton of social science research showing that minority members often hate other members of minority groups.

You do not have any special rights in which you are allowed to be an open homophobe no matter what groups you belong to. Wrong is wrong.

I agree that Matty and Bucko were not nice, but there comments never rose to the level of using such words as "faggot" or "faglet". I don't condone the anti-lesbian language but, you are your friends took this situation to the next level by starting with the racist and homophobic bullshit.

BTW why do you assume I am white?

You chose to go to an adult content blog and read the adult content. Then you and your friends chose to attack the writer of that blog based on his physical appearance and sexual orientation. Those attacks are the attacks of a twelve year old. You merely sounded like an ignorant child yelling and throwing a tantrum on a playground.

Bucko obtained permission to post the link to this blog on Aidsmeds.

There are no legal issues. Parents are the parties responsible for keeping children off the internet as adult material is prevalent. The content of the material on this blog is is written form. It involves sexual behaviors between consenting adults. If your or your friend's children make their way to a blog or website containing adult content, you the parents are the parties legally liable for that child viewing that adult material.

Please quit trying to thrust your parental responsibilities on the rest of society, it is already burdened enough.

We have a First Amendment right to express ourself freely in the United States. I happen to know a little bit more about Constitutional Law than I suspect you do.

Also, what you refer to as "racial ettiquette" is simply silly. Bigotry is bigotry, one group is not allowed or given special rights in which that group may freely bash other marginalized people. Sorry.


I grew up in a single family home, and I worked and supported myself through undergrad, law school, and am now working my way through my graduate program. You know very little of me and my life, and to assume that I am rich and white simply because I am educated is reflective your narrow-minded and very limited frame of reference (ie your intellect).

I think you need to examine why you have internalized the homophobia of your own oppressor. You are the tool of the homophobic ambient culture, by bashing gays, you are doing their dirty work. They don't have to work as hard to oppress gays when gays are doing it to each other.

Think outside of the tiny box you call your world!

 
At Thu Jun 08, 12:41:00 AM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Typo, I should have written "their comments" instead of "there comments".

 
At Thu Jun 08, 01:32:00 AM GMT+10, Blogger Bucko said...

Lyds-
Brilliant commentary...well reasoned, witty and concise. I'm sure your briefs (legal and otherwise) are a sight to see, darling.

Daschie-
The remarks of homophobic frauds such as "Cathy" and her ilk are nectar from the elementals, baby. We drink from them and nourish ourselves with them, gaining strength and, occasionally, getting a good laugh from them.

Like the psychopathic Tom from AM who called me depraved (and whose absence is sadly missed in these warm, wet parts) repeatedly, the raving, ignorant and inane prattle from these confused souls reassures me that, no matter how obsessive I may occasionally get, I am eversomuch more sane than vast acreages of humanity.

Still, we delight in their posts and comments, because it shows by example how astoundingly fetid some folk's minds really get.

God-
Thanks for the absolution, doll. I always knew that you kinky old fux had a thing for short, lean powertops. It'll be your turn on the kitchen table anytime you like, just e-mail me and tell me when so I can clear my schedule.

Pete-
Quote one comment I've made that has any overt (or hidden) racist overtone and I'll feltch from the pigbottom my friends and I are gang-fucking this weekend (see chapter seven when it arrives, probably mid-July).

The fact that the posse of trash thinks that Lyds is a woman still has me glowing with good humor.

And finally-
To the anonymous comment that calls my blog "vile":
It may be vile, but you still read it, which is much more than anyone will ever say about your blog.

If I didn't have to work in 30 minutes I'd have more to say, but for now I must leave it all here.

Gracias, chicitos (y chicitas)-
B

 
At Thu Jun 08, 02:57:00 AM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

"The fact that the posse of trash thinks that Lyds is a woman still has me glowing with good humor."

Bucko thank you again for the kind words. My legal briefs have been called "atomic bombs delivered through the teeth of a pitbull" still not sure if that was a compliment but I certainly took it as one. Perhaps I was looking for "atomic bombs delivered by someone with the face of an angel", but my face is hardly angelic yet still so fucking sexy if I do say so myself?!

Gender is something I play with. Although muscular and Sicilian, I am completely comfortable with all things female and feminine. I admire the strength and power of women. My mother from Sicily has bigger balls than most men I have encountered (and I have encountered many, many, dare I say many men).

"And I am not sorry, it is human nature." Sorry, Madonna quote, sometimes I do that, even though I like harder edged femaale musical icons such as Annie Lennox, and well, Lydia Lunch much more. Still, Madonna loves the cock, and she is Italian and powerfully intelligent, so I love her nonetheless.

It makes me profoundly sad when those who are oppressed join in the oppression of others. Why an African American lesbian would express such hatred for gay men is beyond me, but ignorance is sometimes hard to explain. Sad, but hard to explain.

Thank you Bucko and Matty. Your honesty and truth ring clearly from enlightened minds across the globe.

 
At Thu Jun 08, 09:53:00 AM GMT+10, Blogger Matty the Damned said...

Lydia gays in the US call themselves fags to each other every day. Black lady lesbians who say fag and faglet are not homophobes.

Matty and Bucko's are saying things that are disturbing and racist.

This black gay man who is upper-middle class and lives in a properous black community finds "drive by shooting" and all the other unbelieveably atrocious comments by Bucko and Matty beyond reprehensible.

Lydia if you don't understand racial etiquette in the US then you should keep your big fat fucking mouth shut.


Racial ettiquette? There's racial ettiquette now? According to whom Pete? You dear? Let me guess, you've answered the clarion call from Lisette and the crew to come and stick one up the nasty bigot bois on the Spin Cycle.

Good for you duckie. I love a pussy-whipped gay man. It's SO cute.

I never understood why he lets Matty glorify his IV drug addiction on Aidsmeds.

I understand free speech, but he should be responsible and chime into those threads or put a disclaimer explaining how reckless behavior like Matty's is.


Of course I glorify drug use. Disease, compulsive behaviour, social opprobrium, dead friends. My threads at AIDSMEDS on the matter depict a life so glamorous that I can't understand why everone isn't getting about with a fit hanging out of their arm.

Lydia,

As usual your commentary here is clear and to the point. You, like every rational person, understands that Cathy and her Pussy Posse holler "racist" and "mysognist" at everyone who deigns to disagree with them.

You're quite correct, dear Lydia, when you note that Buckles and I are not nice. We're nasty, cantankerous queers who, gifted in the vicious arts, take great pleasure is skewering the feeble minded who attempt to engage us.

Rest assured that we will continue as we always have. Confronting, offensive, informative and enormously witty.

What Cathy and Co. have attempted here is a typical excercise in Heat and Light and it's failed. Well from their perpective it has.

For us it's been enormous fun.

And it's nice to know that the Supreme Personality is a Spin Cycle reader.

MtD

 
At Thu Jun 08, 07:19:00 PM GMT+10, Blogger Matty the Damned said...

I read the whole lot Meg and you were right - a bunch of nasty disgusting bigots.

Give the drug addict a break though. He has typical addict behavior. When he hits bottom he'll crash hard and all the guilt will rise to the top. Just like the rest of them. Poor fool.

And for all those who deleted your comments, the addict is lying about being able to read your deleted posts. He can't.

Addicts lie all the time.


Welcome Corrinne!

It's lovely to be able to welcome yet another gorgon from the Breeder Committee for American Decency.

You seem to know much more about drug addicts than little ol' me, so I'll defer to you on this one. But do tell me one thing: who taught you so much about addiction? Hubby perhaps as he pimped your kiddies for $5 worth of rock?

Do give my regards to Lisette, she seems to have gone all silent suddenly.

Visit us often sweetest! ;-)

MtD

 
At Thu Jun 08, 10:24:00 PM GMT+10, Blogger Bucko said...

Lyds-
Sicilian, huh? Muscular, smart, insightful and "no angel" too...Hmmmmmmmmmm. Please don't tell me that you have hair on your back, sweetums, because I think that I may have found another lust object! :-)

I have MtD to thank for the title of chapter three (The Sicilian Wedding Sheet). The day that it happened, the very afternoon that I met B36, I described what had just transpired to him. He insisted that no other title would do, and I concurred wholeheartedly. As disturbed as I was (and I was pretty shaken up), he helped me to regain my perspective and good humor. That's one of the myriad reasons why I love the drunken old tart with such ferocity.

If you haven't done so yet, may I suggest that you peruse the archives and read my tales of JD, Guardian Angel #38 and the four chapters I got out regarding Jean-Marc, beginning with Titpig's Frustration? They are all important stories from my past and damn well written, If I do say so myself.

Thanks, as always, darling. We adore you around here at The Spin Cycle.

Corrine-
Welcome aboard, luv! Thanks for the comment on the comments, but what, pray tell, do you think of the series of essays?

I'm sure that you would have naturally been drawn to a multi-part series of male homoerotic stories with the title "Deep Inside Mancunt, or Titpig's Adventures in Barebacking" all by your lonesome, as lesbians ordinarily love such things. It's too bad Andrea Dworkin isn't still around to throw in her two cents as well.

Please read the ENTIRE series and give me your feedback, doll. I love tete-a-tetes with my fans.

Bisous,
B

 
At Thu Jun 08, 10:28:00 PM GMT+10, Blogger Bucko said...

Oops! The correct and full title of the story about JD is "JD: Guardian Angel #18, or Immaculate White Hightop Ponys".

I wish there were an edit function on this thing for typos.

Ciao!
B

 
At Fri Jun 09, 08:26:00 AM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Matty I've been a social worker for 15 years and dealt with drug addicts just like you. I can spot one with my eyes closed.

They lie. They dismiss responsibility. They anger at judgement, but put up a veil of indifference as a defense mechanism.

But without fail every one of them hits bottom eventually and a flood of guilt and pain rises to the top.

I can put your racist remarks in perspective because I understand the tools addicts use to shield themselves from the immense pain and anger and guilt they bury.

I've never met an addict who could turn into a nasty belligerent son of a bitch with the flip of a switch. But it's the addiction and pain, not the person within.

Meg don't waste your time. He'll have to deal with his addiction sooner or later. He'll either reach rock bottom and get help or find himself six feet under. Equal odds on both fronts, but hopefully he'll get the help he needs.

IV drug users are addicts from the second they shoot up. Without fail.

That rush stays with them and they tell themselves they don't need it or its under control and they can go three months without it, but they always go back. They always crave it.

They surround themselves with "yes" people who enable their addiction.

People like that really ugly guy who is so afraid of judgement himself because of his irresposible sexual behavior that he sits back and ignores the obvious willingly and cheers Matty on because he rather have approval, then confront the situation. Weak empty people who also hurt.

Matt will dismiss this like all addicts do at this point in their disease and he'll think he has all the answers and put up a snarky veil. But it's the truth.

Like I said Meg, don't waste your time.

Love you Meg baby :)
Corrine

 
At Fri Jun 09, 08:29:00 AM GMT+10, Blogger Bucko said...

Megs, darl-

And here I thought you were too busy tie-dying cotton diapers and 4x Tee-Shirts to donate to the Incest Survivor Fundraiser/Northhampton Bluegrass Music Festival to continue posting your delightful comments on our smutty little blog! My mistake, dear :-)

Yup, I've made sure that your Corrine and all your other compatriots get the warm and cheery patented Spin Cycle welcome. I'll be sure to look for you at the Dyke March in San Francisco because, of course, one Gay Pride Parade celebrating diversity cannot possibly represent all the glory of your sweaty brood sporting mullets and chin-hairs.

Where, pray tell, did that dainty little flower Lisette run off to? I miss her ribald witticisms almost as much as Cat's.

BTW- Fight Club's one of my all time faves, and one could do much worse than being compared to a Yale-trained actor.

Bisous,
B

 
At Fri Jun 09, 08:29:00 AM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Sorry Meg I put your name up top. Blogger site is burpy all day and screwing me up.

Love ya sweets :)
Corrine

 
At Fri Jun 09, 08:36:00 AM GMT+10, Blogger Bucko said...

Corrine-

Thank you for your eloquent testimonial on the dangers of IV drug use. I don't believe that MtD has ever denied his use, but as he says here:

"Of course I glorify drug use. Disease, compulsive behaviour, social opprobrium, dead friends. My threads at AIDSMEDS on the matter depict a life so glamorous that I can't understand why everone isn't getting about with a fit hanging out of their arm."

Perhaps it it owing to your limited education that you fail to grasp the full import of what Matty's saying. Read it again, luv...I'm not seeing any quest for approval anywhere. Perhaps you could point it out to me and my AIDS-addled, befogged brain.

Bisous,
B

 
At Fri Jun 09, 09:12:00 AM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I've seen his post he's made on AIDSMEDS about his addiction or anything for that matter and his angry responses when he thinks people are judging him.

He attacks and becomes angry so all he hears are those who don't judge him. Typical addict. Surround yourself with what you want to hear and enablers that will defend and make excuses (eg, ugly Brent).

I've seen addicts just like him for years. Your response is typcial enabler. Matty's will be typical addict: ignore or dismiss veiling guilt and rage.

See ya ugly Brent!
Corrine

 
At Fri Jun 09, 09:14:00 AM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I've seen his post he's made on AIDSMEDS about his addiction or anything for that matter and his angry responses when he thinks people are judging him.

He attacks and becomes angry so all he hears are those who don't judge him. Typical addict. Surround yourself with what you want to hear and enablers that will defend and make excuses (eg, ugly Brent).

I've seen addicts just like him for years. Your response is typcial enabler. Matty's will be typical addict: ignore or dismiss veiling guilt and rage.

See ya ugly Brent!
Corrine

 
At Fri Jun 09, 10:32:00 AM GMT+10, Blogger Bucko said...

Corrine,

It must be...
"I've been a social worker for 15 years and dealt with drug addicts just like you. I can spot one with my eyes closed"
...all that experience as a social worker (case manager, too, no doubt) that leads you to make such insightful and profound statements as...
"I've seen his post he's made on AIDSMEDS about his addiction or anything for that matter and his angry responses when he thinks people are judging him."

I am so glad that I have a straight Powerlatina for my case manager. Those chicas know how to get shit done, unlike the flaccid, lazy worthless bitches I've moved on from time and time again.

It must be because I'm so repulsively ugly ;-)

Bisous,
B

 
At Fri Jun 09, 01:38:00 PM GMT+10, Blogger Bucko said...

Hey Pete-

There are many differences between MtD and G, my ex: humor, intellect, education and unconditional love are just the first four which popped up in the time it takes to type this out. G was a self-absorbed Tina Twink who used my affection but was incapable of returning it in kind. Nor was G capable of an honest conversation. Matty and I share the deepest parts of our souls every night.

Matty is no one's idea of a Twink, and he refrains from crystal methamphetamine. His drug(s) of choice reside elsewhere. I am familiar enough with drugs, their effects and their users to understand the diverse differences. Unlike you, mon vieux, I always laughed at Nancy Reagan's "Just Say No".

There are degrees of humanity which one looses with meth. I learned about all this the hardest way possible, with my heart. Matty gives me his humanity every day, without the prissy value-judgements and simplistic sloganeerism you seem to prefer. But then, cliche comes easily to simple minds.

The fact that Matty and I have embraced each other's demons and cherish each other all the more, not in spite of, but rather because of them seems to trouble you a tad too much for someone with no personal investment in either one of us, baby. What's up with your obsession with two sad, AIDS-infested losers, anyways?

You choose to find me unattractive, which suits me fine. I doubt that you would float my boat either, sweetness. Prim, chubby bourgeois types never have interested me. And your cowardice in choosing to not reveal your screenname on AIDSmeds doesn't speak well of your character either, luv.

Once again, my quick-on-the-trigger friend, point out one instance where I have uttered anything even remotely racist, either by implication or explicitly. Your little exercise will come up empty (much like Lisette's mindless threats) because they don't exist.

Surely someone with the best tertiary education available can find something beyond references to hairnets and backtits (which are neither racist nor necessarily anti-woman, BTW. A woman taught me the term backtits which I hadn't heard until she used the term in my presence and she had a huge pair herself).

Please comment, however, on the series of essays, which is your reason for actually visiting The Spin Cycle, baby. It sure ain't for the free food.

Ciao-
B

BTW, tubbo- post a pic of your lovely self so we can all get a gander of your tired, slack flesh.

 
At Fri Jun 09, 01:51:00 PM GMT+10, Blogger Bucko said...

And just in case you forget where you are, please let me remind you that the series currently under discussion is:

Deep Inside Mancunt, or Titpig's Adventures in Barebacking

I found the title both witty and immensely provocative, n'est-ce pas?

 
At Fri Jun 09, 02:11:00 PM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Meg ignore him he's too fucking stupid and lost.

Making excuses like "Matty is a good guy" and "he doesn't use Meth" but still shoots up is just what enablers do. They rationalize everything. They are so used to it they don't even have to think about it.

They'll learn the hard way. Everyone does. They either reach rock bottom or they lie six feet under.

I'll "flag" the site for the drug talk and underage interaction with the blogger admins.

Anyone else reading this should do the same. This is entering criminal territory with sex, drugs and underage participants.

 
At Fri Jun 09, 02:27:00 PM GMT+10, Blogger Bucko said...

Megs, baby!

Seems that you have read something, but not much, of the 2000+ posts I've made on AIDSmeds over the last year. Making light of my distress involving a love affair gone horribly wrong makes me respect you even more, sweetheart.

So, once again...what's your screenname?

What are your counts?

Which meds are you on?

Where are your threads introducing yourself, your issues, your little kitchen-sink dramas?

See, it's easy to take the honest words of someone seeking support and understanding and twisting them into something dark and dreadful. But to have your own words, your own dillemas, your own life-issues on display for the casual perusal and judgement of others takes the sort of courage you are not just incapable of understanding, but incapable of actualizing in your own life.

Unlike Hermie, Zeph, Alanbama, Joe Kilfoile, JK, RAB, SAE, Consumed, The Canuck, Moffie and all my other friends who have shared my struggles, you are a voyeur, a fraud and a lonely, bitter slob who has nothing better to do than attempt to denegrate a 46-year-old man living with AIDS to the fullest of his potential.

More threats, luv? Bring on the biggest guns in your Dyke arsenal, doll. You neither frighten nor intimidate me.

In the words of the man you helped elect:
Bring it on!

Bisous,
B

 
At Fri Jun 09, 04:13:00 PM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I love you guys and didn't really want to get in the middle of this but I have to tell you the PMs are buzzing about this over at AM and you are both coming out on the losing end. People aren't siding with you on the racial remarks. Brent you should know better man.

Cut the bitches off and delete some stuff and close the comments. It's not worth it guys.

Love you guys,
A Friend

 
At Fri Jun 09, 06:13:00 PM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Matty is from Australia and maybe he doesn't understand in the US how racial epithets about African Americans are a big no no.

Maybe also from things he's wrote about he says he is a leftie so maybe white supremicist groups are on the left in Australia.

That would be weird like Republicans could be on the left in Australia.

 
At Fri Jun 09, 06:32:00 PM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I flagged it too.

Hate speech.

 
At Fri Jun 09, 11:02:00 PM GMT+10, Blogger Bucko said...

I owe no one an apology, and I owe no one an explaination.

Shequira and Latrina were friends of a woman who was a guest in my home in New Haven many times, as a dinner companion or simply watching a DVD. I fail to see how mentioning a couple of names falls under the rubic of hate speech...but if you find it offensive, may I suggest that you report us. Please report us.

No friend of mine would post as "a friend", period.

If you enjoy getting your kicks by denegrating me, my life, my accomplishments, my goals or my struggles, please be my guest (which, BTW, you are as comment posters here on The Spin Cycle).

And as any good host will do when the guest has obviously sipped one too many aperitifs, let me direct the conversation back to its focus:

Shall we discuss the fisting gone bloody?

Maybe my penchant for straight anal gangbang porn is worth a passing glance.

I would relesh the chance to discuss the difference between the snugness of a total bottom (like Lechero) and a top/versatile (such as Lover).

Maybe it's time to discuss FtLJeepStud's jeep: it was a CJ.

Dawg and I continue to see each other. We fucked two nights ago and we played out his asphyxiation fantasy to a conclusion that was as arousing as it was limit-smashing.

Is anyone curious what part Zephyr plays out in all this? How many more cameos might we anticipate?

Let's keep on message, people. You have engineered this pseudo-racist crap while spewing homophobic and AIDSphobic bile that, while offensive to many, simply shows me the paucity of both your vocabularies and imaginations.

If the slur fits, you must submit...complaints to whomever you think really gives a rat's ass about anonymous posters on the comments section of a taudry, smutty, Q-list blog.

Ciao gordos y gordas-

B

 
At Sat Jun 10, 02:05:00 AM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

So the PMs are all abuzz at Aidsmeds.com?

And no one cares that these anon women are using faggot, a word equally as vile as nigger, freely and openly, when Matty and Bucko never used the word nigger?

And "a friend" you have access to all the contents of all the private messages at Aidsmeds.com. Are you a psychic or a computer hacker. Come on.

The only hate speech I have seen used was the word faggot.

As a proud woman of color myself, I find the use of the word "faggot" astonising and vulgar.

 
At Sat Jun 10, 02:42:00 AM GMT+10, Blogger Bucko said...

Thanks for stopping by, Carol-

We here at the Spin Cycle are used to visitors with various infirmities, sweetheart. The Pussy Posse (or, should I say Clit Clique) that seems to descended on us most recently is just one of an all too common strain of troll. We deal (as best as our meagre resources and healths will allow) with such types with all the aplomb and style our loyal readership has come to expect.

Rest assurred that no one taken in by the outraged innocence of "Carol", "Lisette", "Megs" or that silliest rant of them all, "Pete". These personas are obviously the fevered confabulations of one or two late-night losers for whom psych meds offer, alas, slender hope.

Enjoy the chuckles they provide, because much like The Weekly World News, they are a fakery writ big bold and sadly boringly banal.

Now, as for you... could we possibly have witnessed a sighting of that foxy Floridian Philly?

B

 
At Sat Jun 10, 03:37:00 AM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Does anyone understand Bucko's disjointed rants? When I read them it's like they're coming from a cracked-out loser with ADD.

Bucko and Matty are racists. These women were your house guests? Meg it sounds like Bucko's lie number ten. He steps in shit and keeps trying to dig himself out. Where's the druggie?

Confabulations? Yeah, Bucko, if that makes you sleep better.

 
At Sat Jun 10, 04:56:00 AM GMT+10, Blogger Bucko said...

"Pete"-

I'm typing this very slowly because I know that you don't read so well...

"Shequira and Latrina were friends of a woman who was a guest in my home in New Haven many times, as a dinner companion or simply watching a DVD. I fail to see how mentioning a couple of names falls under the rubic of hate speech...but if you find it offensive, may I suggest that you report us. Please report us."

Neither Shequira nor Latrina were guests in my home. However, their friend was a frequent guest, as was her son. Reread the two sentences I've cut and pasted for you again, babe. Now read them again. I understand that your education is exemplary and that it is the cause of much pride to you. But it does seem a waste when you both read words that aren't there and cannot read the words I've written.

BTW, doll-
What are your current counts?
What meds are you on?
How much do you pay in co-pays every month for your HIV meds (not the psyche meds which obviously aren't up to the heavy burden)?
When were you diagnosed?

Introduce yourself on AIDSmeds in the introduction thread initiated by my blogmate Herman. It's in the Living With forum, babe.

Oh, and stay away from those fries...the ketchup stains on your sleeve are a dead give away.

Ciao for now-
B

 
At Sat Jun 10, 06:10:00 AM GMT+10, Blogger Bucko said...

"I don't understand his gibberish either Pete. I think he's trying to be funny or cute. Tall order when your an ugly skank rat face."

Once again, the wonders of a higher education in the US are illustrated to their best advantage.

"I wonder how long it took fuglet to concoct the story about Latrina and Shequira. Tell me lies, tell me sweet little lies. Oh tell me lies. Tell me tell me lies."

Seeing how well you know me, Megs, I can't imagine how I thought such a blatant fib would make it past your eagle eyes. Of course you were there throughout my life and played such an enormous (though invisible) part of it that each nuance of a conversation I had seven years ago with a guest in my home over dinner gets to be fact-checked by you. Thanks, doll...

"Rat face fuglet the ketchup line was a hoot and a holer. I'll remember to laugh when your one liners start makin' sense and are funny. As long as you think you're amusing, then the ladies are happy."

Yeah...I live for the approval of some anonymous crank who claims to be an African American Lesbian almost as much as I am concerned as to whether or not fat, hairy Lesbians find me atractive. Your insights are matched only by your stining witticisms. Anything else I can do to keep you "ladies" happy?

"Where's Matty the druggie? Is he burning some crosses or getting fitted for his white hood?"

Missing our beloved MtD? Don't fret, luv. He's in Sydney making Australia a little less comfortable for conservatives. But with all you've read of his thousands of posts, you knew how active he is in Australian politics, right babe?

"I'd love to see what you and your friends would do. Let me guess, you and your food-stamp queen posse Raneesha, Babi-Girl and Gorgeous are going to jump in the Pontiac, drive down to SoFla and wipe the despicable Buckles out in a drive-by, that's it right?" -- stated proudly by Matty the druggie racist."

You cut, paste and boldface. Is there anything short of wearing pretty things and attractive hairstyles that Meg the wonder Pozdyke can't do? It's really not your fault, dear. True Religion jeans only run up to size 32, and that would barely make it around your luscious calves.

"Love to druggie boy,
Meghan"

He knows, baby, he knows.

Now Megs...same questions I directed to "Pete":

What are your current counts?
What meds are you on?
How much do you pay in co-pays every month for your HIV meds (not the psyche meds which obviously aren't up to the heavy burden)?
When were you diagnosed?

Introduce yourself on AIDSmeds in the introduction thread initiated by my blogmate Herman. It's in the Living With forum, babe.

Bisous but no tongues-
B

 
At Sat Jun 10, 06:57:00 AM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Between noddin' off and cross burning how the hell did Matty ever find the time to represent the Labour Party in Sydney this weekend? That boy is so heroin chic!

Big Doxie

 
At Sat Jun 10, 08:54:00 AM GMT+10, Blogger Bucko said...

Megs, darling-

Since you obviously are negative (in every sense of the term), what's your real gig here? Has your depression over the cancellation of Lillith Fair gotten so extreme that it come down to this?

Wipe that menstrual moustache off your hairy upper lip (go on, now, dear, just do it) and take a good long look at yourself in the pieces of your bathroom mirror that haven't cracked yet. What do you see?

Do your tone-deaf, one-note misfires actually seem like the observations of a reasonable, intelligent person?

Reread some of your more "biting" remarks. Whom, exactly, are they supposed to impress? Call me ratboy, fugly, etc. Does that make you feel somehow prettier, wittier or more sophisticated?

You have no concept of what life with HIV/AIDS is, what it means, how it feels. This blog is all about what the lives of four men (on three continents) who live with the virus everyday. Somehow your mindless shrieks bemoaning the "racism" implicit in the suggestion that Shequira or Latrina might not be the most fortunate names with which to saddle a little girl sounds hollow and grasping.

Now back to the inappropriate names for a second. Have you bothered to actually pronounce these stunningly putrid examples of implicit child abuse?
Shee-queer-a...(than whom?)
Latrine-a...(named after a toilet)

These are NOT names I made up. They are actual examples of illiteracy and poor judgement within your community. Instead of harping on the fetid, rambling musings of four men coming to grips with their own mortality, why not invest all this free time in sponsoring literacy or attempting to lower the infant mortality rate of African Americans in your own community?

Now a word about the members of the AIDSmeds fora which you so blythely take in vain, baby. Cliff and I have been friendly but rather non-committal since I joined last June. He and I disagree on so many things, not the least of which is his insistence on giving George W Bush the benefit of a doubt that I simply am incapable of extending. See, lovie, Cliff's to the right of me in so very many different issues.

He and Matty have had multiple flame wars back when such things were tolerated on AIDSmeds and are certainly not friends in any sense of the term. Race has never played a part in these heated discussions, however.

Matty hardly needs me to defend him, as his record regarding the respect inherent in human beings is irreproachable. Did you somehow miss his thread in Off Topics a few months back decrying the fate of a homeless Aboriginal who was left to die like a rat in the streets of Sydney? It brought a tear to my eye,

His most recent post, "Fuck David Hicks" is gut-turningly explicit in its depictions of the Taliban and its brutal repression of women, among others. To suggest that he has a problem with women in general shows how little you actually read our blog.

It's not women, or even lesbians, that cause his caustic, toxic wit to take aim in your direction, sweetheart. It's just you and your simplistic illiterate rants.

The same must be said for me. I have posted many times and in many places (including here at The Spin Cycle) my undying love and respect for my sister, who is a lesbian (although slim, glam and fashionable). It's just the dull barking of dimwitted dykes such as yourself that give me such a chuckle.

Rasheen's boyfriend is someone named Thomas, as I'm sure you are aware. last November, when he first joined AM under the screenname "SadTom" he was in a horrifying place of despair, depression, and isolated withdrawl. He was very close to loosing his house, his daughter (who is bi-racial) his car...everything. I spent long hours talking things through with him, both on the phone and through IMs/PMs. I know that I made a difference in his recovery from depression.

When I was in such despair over the implosion of my relationship with G, both Thomas and Rasheen reached out to me. We have a history about which you know absolutely nothing, my little rosebud.

You seem to have not even noticed Eldon, BTW. How'd you miss him?

So, once again...I implore you to complain loudly and often to whoever will listen to your pathetic spitballs. Tell the world that we are bigots and publish hate speech. I'd love the extra kick in our readership such desperate measures would inevitably entail.

Bye for now-
B

 
At Sat Jun 10, 10:55:00 AM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Meghan, Lisette, Cathy and me are all negative.

Meg now that Dr. Brent gave us our diagnosis we have to make sure next week at our HIV meet-up that we let everyone in on the good news.

Meg I love you sweetie! You rock!

Cathy

 
At Sat Jun 10, 11:08:00 AM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Methinks Bailey is part black. Could be some American Indian. Never can tell.

just sayin'

 
At Sat Jun 10, 02:06:00 PM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

No Bailey looks Peruvian probably Inca or Aztec blood. Bucko and Bailey don't get along so you won't see him chime in.

--skippy

 
At Sat Jun 10, 03:52:00 PM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I was talking to my buddy at the World Cup and he said a lot of the racist gestures and remarks in the crowd come from Germans and Australians.

Could be Matty was brought up not knowing how bad what he said was.

 
At Sun Jun 11, 12:05:00 AM GMT+10, Blogger Bucko said...

Matty uses his words like sabre to cut through bullshitters, frauds, fakes and other assorts trolls such as...
"Anonymous said...
Meghan, Lisette, Cathy and me are all negative.

Meg now that Dr. Brent gave us our diagnosis we have to make sure next week at our HIV meet-up that we let everyone in on the good news.

Meg I love you sweetie! You rock!

Cathy"

Cath- in your latest rant you include yourself twice. Did you begin in one personality and slip into another when finishing off?

Skippy-
Welcome to the Spin Cycle, babe. Just one teeny tiny thing- where did you get the impression that Bailey and I don't get along?

He and I have never had an unkind thing to say to or about each other. In fact, we have frequently exchanged playful volleys in the Off Topics forum. And I have always been highly complimentary of his blog, which I follow with keen interest.

I do not speculate on the ethnic backgrounds of AM members.

I also find it highly amusing that none of the hypersensitive souls in these parts have chosen to comment on my professed preference for Latinos, which is something anyone who knows me even a bit knows very well. B36 and Lechero are both so dark as to no longer be anyone's idea of caucasian. Tonight I'm fucking a little bulldog Venezuelan whom I've seen twice already. He's both delicious and decidedly non-white.

In fact, Dawg is the only white guy with whom I have a regular arrangement. Blue-eyed blondes are simply not mi gusta, chicas.

G was born in Honduras and his heritage includes both Native Americans and Arabs. His complexion is the color of my cherry kitchen table.

And, as everyone around at the time remembers, last November I wrote extensively in Off-Topics of my dear friend Michael, former soilder/stripper/porn star/drag queen extraordinaire. Michael was my first attempt at a friend down here in Ft Lauderdale and he shares my affection as well as my bed from time to time. His parents met while his father was stationed in Germany. Michael is mixed-race as well, with the chestnut skin and African features of his dad and the bright green eyes of his mom.

I befriend and fuck people, not racial subtypes.

I shall stop here because a catalog of my various consorts over the years, divided by race, is in and of itself racist.

And finally- my current neighborhood is very diverse, but is majority-population Haitian. I practice my Creole with them, which impresses them mightily.

When you know only what I've specifically chosen to reveal about myself you get a somewhat distorted picture of who I really am and what I am really all about. I guess this is understandable, even as it invites charges of backfilling when new pieces of the puzzle are introduced.

Rest assurred, gentle readers and correspondants. Your Bucko is a flaming pansy pagan anarchist who, though light-years from perfect, works too hard at busting stereotypes and narrow minds to let this thundering herd of pseudo-black, psuedo-lesbian, pseudo-intellectual neurotic ninnies kick him in the nuts.

Bisous and rosepetals everywhere-
B

 
At Sun Jun 11, 12:12:00 AM GMT+10, Blogger Bucko said...

And it seems to have escaped the notice or comprehension of "Megs" and all the other voices in the head(s) of this brain-dead clit clique that others, having their own lives and priorities, simply don't give a shit what happens over here at this fetid little outpost in cyberspace.

What happens at The Spin Cycle stays at The Spin Cycle.

How are those complaints coming, dear?

Loving you like kittens-
B

 
At Sun Jun 11, 01:56:00 AM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

"How are those complaints coming, dear?"

LOL!

Let's see, the threat that involved actually working for the parent company that owns Poz.com. Then the legal issues involving hate speech and under-aged people posting here. Oh and the "flagging" of blogger. Yeah, uh-huh.

I haver re-read these comments and something smells really fishy.

I have a strong suspician that these HIV positive African American lesbians no less do not exist but are rather the creation of a troll who posted here on an earlier thread. That troll is shockingly absent. Where is Tom-Tom in all of this.

A person of adequate intelligence might create a "perfect" poster. One who is marginalized on multiple-levels to deliver the most toxic of comments without reaping the punishment for making such comments.

Creating a faux HIV postive African-American lesbian would be one way of doing this. And guess what, there is an entire coven of such women, women who have never openly posted on Aidsmeds.com posting here.

Why would these "ladies" so bravely post here, but not openly post there.

I smell a fishy swishy hoax on the part of a lurking troll.

Okay, ladies. Play the race card all you want to. It is easy when you are a white male from Western Europe.

Black lesbian HIV postive social workers my ass!

Lydia Lunch (who can smell bullshit a MILE away, or even a continent away).

 
At Sun Jun 11, 02:12:00 AM GMT+10, Blogger Bucko said...

Lyds, luv-

We've missed your caustic, stylized wit in these parts lately. Yup, babe...even someone with the IQ of a fencepost can spot the obvious fakery and douchebaggery of this gaggle of clit-chewing, gash-fisting, mean-as-fuck-and-take-no-prisoners pseudo powerdykes.

Tom-Tom it may or may not be. After all, darling, there are more crazies in the US than in all of the other human population combined.

Chapter four will be published next week, after MtD finishes his ode to child-abuse survivors. His premise is beyond brilliant and will most assuredly cause multiple stirs amongst the professional victim set.

Rest assurred that we here at the Spin Cycle will never loose our edge and continue to publish the kind of insights into the human experience unavailable elsewhere.

We love you, Lyds. You are truly the kind of guests we thrive on. Have you any chums who might benefit from a weekly dose of our venom and ribald grace? Invite them over. Matty and I love group scenes.

With all my heart (and all the dick you can handle)-
B

 
At Sun Jun 11, 02:42:00 AM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Thanks Bucko.

I find it interesting that a herd of seeminly sacred cows emerges with this post. Tom-Tom failed in his last attempts at taking pot shots at your posts (perhaps he was working on the ever-growing HPV quilt expanding across the nation).

You are right that the United States has more than its share of intellectually challenged psychopaths.

I honestly hope to god that this simple-minded and hateful batch of shrews does not actually represent social workers in America. How sad would that be? God help those they are deigned to help. With help like that, who needs hatred?

The untrue cliche that lesbians are women who have turned to other women based on bad experiences was the first clue given. Poor "Cathy" stating that many African American women, infected by their partners, end up loving other women just seems too damn "Lifetime Movie Channel" for me to swallow without gagging.

If women routinely turned to other women as sexual partners based on bad experiences with men, there would be no heterosexual women left. Come on girls, you can do better than that.

Why don't you girls openly post on Aidsmeds.com since you know so much of everyone who posts there?

Why isn't right-wing Cliff wagging his Bush licking tongue in your defense?

Cliff is your typical pathetic marginalized person, always sucking up to those who oppress him. He doesn't get it, and he isn't fighting for his "tough" black lesbian sisters either. He is probably planning his next vacation, and shopping at Neiman Marcus for the right table cloth.

And I am sure he doesn't like being called a "faglet" because the love of cock is stronger than any pseudo group bonds you threaten others with.

Solidarity my ass.

 
At Sun Jun 11, 03:32:00 AM GMT+10, Blogger Bucko said...

Lyds-

Good girl! You DO do your homework!

Color me impressed, darling. Any palns to visit SoFla soon? I might make an exception to my poz-only rule (just once) and engage in some nice friendly mutual fellatio.

I am the very best, you know...

Running to work now, dear-
B

 
At Sun Jun 11, 04:31:00 AM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Isn't it cute how they tell themselves things they want to hear to make themselves feel better?

Th voices in my head!

Cathy

 
At Sun Jun 11, 06:37:00 AM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Cathy,

I am having a really hard time thinking that you are "for real". This entire woman turning lesbian thing just doesn't pass the smell test.

So you are telling us that you were infected by a man and because of this you decided to become a lesbian. You don't see Rasheen "jumping the fence" and playing for the other team, when what you describe happened to her. You also don't see her gay-bashing as well.

I know quite a few lesbians, real, honest to goodness lesbians. I never hear them using words such as "faggot" or "faglet". By using these words you are demeaning members of your own community. This is why I don't believe that you are in fact a lesbian. You don't strike me as entirely stupid, so I am sure that you are smarter than that and understand that gay men and women need to support one another.

The lesbian community is owed a great deal of respect for standing by their gay brothers when really no one else would during the early days of this epidemic. I stand in solidarity with my lesbian sisters. And I love my female heterosexual friends with whom I have shared strong friendships.

It really saddens me when I hear people of color using such words as "faggot". Why can you not grasp the fact that hatred and bigotry are wrong
regardless of the direction in which they are thrown?

I also do not condone LBGT people using the "N" word. I won't use it even when I am being called "faggot" by people of African descent.

I wonder why you do not openly post your concerns directly on the Aidsmeds.com forum. Bucko's thread seems like the perfect place in which to take your complaints. By doing this, you will boost your own credibility, and have to stand by your own words of hatred and bigotry. That may require having a backbone, but I am sure if you are really a lesbian woman of color living with HIV, you have a strong backbone. Demonstrate this strength and show some integrity by honestly posting your thoughts and feelings on Aidsmeds.com.

Now, why you may ask, do I not post on Aidsmeds.com. Well, for one I am HIV negative. Secondly, I am also not in a "worry-wart" state of being, so I really don't have a forum in which to state my opinions. Bucko's thread is placed in the "Living With" section, and I respect the forum and its members too much to violate the rules.

I don't post in the off topic section because I really haven't developed a relationship with the people who post on Aidsmeds.com. I have however enjoyed reading The Spin Cycle and enjoy exchanging comments with Matty and Bucko. You should really read ALL of their threads, because there is a great deal of substance that you seem to be missing.

So Cathy, come out of hiding. Post your concerns on Aidsmeds.com.

Also, none of your threats seem to have any real bite. It makes me wonder how many of your threats were based on lies.

Bucko, BTW, never been to South Florida, but I would love to hang out . Do you ever come to Los Angeles?

 
At Sun Jun 11, 06:44:00 AM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Gilroy Wisnewski is a sweetheart.

Lydia Lunch Lady

 
At Sun Jun 11, 07:31:00 AM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Meghan,

I am not Bucko or Matty.

Did you read what I wrote? You never address the substance of anything written, you just return to your immature and simple-minded name calling.

Who really knows who you are. I do feel sorry for you because you aren't very intelligent. I know that dealing with a serious illness without a keen and intelligent mind can make effectively fighting your illness more difficult.

If in fact you really do have HIV. And do tell Meghan, how you got HIV? Did you also become a lesbian because of it?

Perhaps you think that everyone posting here is either Bucko or Matty because you are really just one lonely person.

If you have kids, why not devote the time and energy you spend on this blog to taking care of them. Perhaps downloading a child protection internet program so certain dangerous words will never pass in front to their eyes might be a good start.

Still, if you are "for real" please post your identity (by that I mean your Aidsmeds.com identity) on Aidsmeds.com with you concerns.

Unless you are ashamed of your homophobic rants.

 
At Sun Jun 11, 09:07:00 AM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I discovered Aidsmeds last year when I had an exposure and a scare. I tested negative 16 weeks after the initial exposure. That is how I discovered the website.

I would read the forums and found them very interesting. I was impressed by the strength and courage of people posting there.

I am glad that you can quote Stevie Nicks songs. Good for you.

 
At Sun Jun 11, 10:22:00 AM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

They'll bottom out. Don't waste your energy Meg. We see the sadness and vulgarity imbedded in these lost souls.

Hope they find their way. Any sane human being can see how screwed up their lives are and the repugnant racist remarks they make.

They'll just keep making up excuses because they've lost the capacity to feel. Matt is numb and lost in addiction, and Brent is the enabler with grave issues of his own.

It's the addiction dance and the cycle of despair. A heart of sadness protected by a wall of attack mode racism and vulgarity.

Check your e-mail Meg baby.
Corrine

 
At Sun Jun 11, 10:43:00 AM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

What about me Corrine? I don't do drugs, have multiple degrees? I won't judge another based on her or his addictions. Does that make me an enabler as well?

I see the value in other human beings. Matty and Bucko are brilliant writers. Read their stuff. You are missing a lot of really interesting things.

You are so into applying labels to people so that you can diminish and dismiss them.

Why are you such an unkind person?

Why are you such a bigot?

 
At Sun Jun 11, 11:32:00 AM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Lunch kind sir my problem is the glorification, enablement, indifference and effect that has on people's lives, their family, friends and others around them

I've seen thousands of addicts and the hell that befalls each and every one of them.

Addicts don't get beter by handling them with kid gloves or making excuses for them or saying you don't want to be judgemental. People do that to protect themselves, not to help others.

These drugs are not a joke. They are highly addictive and destructive - especially injectables.

I've shown a degree of empathy for Matty and provided explanations for his racist remarks, but that doesn't suggest I will condone or ignore it or that enablers and addicts should be coddled.

Spend a day in a rehab clinic and see hoe counselors treat addicts. It's tough love and this is teh only way.

Plus you have a 14 year old here reading and DEFENDING this behavior. What if that was your brother? Your child? Your parent?

Caring about someone means you look out for them. It doesn't mean you ignore their destructive behavior or treat them with kid gloves so they like you.

 
At Sun Jun 11, 12:16:00 PM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Corrine,

I have seen a lot of addiction as well. I never thought Matty glorified it in his writing. I think he uses sarcasm and irony quite a bit. He has been up front with all of the consequences he has faced because of his addiction. Bucko also has written about the consequences he has faced, for example the severe UTI following the encounter described here.

I feel that Jaser is an intelligent 15 year old. No, children should not view pornographic material, I agree. However Jaser is facing HIV at a very young age. From my understanding he contracted it sexually. I don't think the content of this website represents the greatest dangers in his young life.

The other thing is that it is the parents responsibility to keep children off of adult oriented websites. There is far more graphic depictions of sexual acts on the internet than what is described here.

I try to to diminish or label people.
I never used any racial terms, or made any racial remarks. I just wish the same respect would be paid to sexual minorities as well.

Gay men and lesbians are on the same team. In this politically charged world, with the current administration, we should really be working together, not against one another.

I have a great deal of respect for women. I was raised by my Sicilian grandmother and she was the kindest and strongest person I have ever known. She was kind to all people, regardless of race, gender, income, education and sexual orientation.

I have done my best to follow her example. I am kind to others and I do not see them as "less than" based on their addictions of afflictions.

Matty and Bucko have spoken out for the rights of women in general many times. Read Matty's thread on David Hicks. Check out his links. He does not hate women.

Extending kindness and seeing the good in others does not make one an enabler, it makes one a human being capable of sympathy, empathy, and compassion.

 
At Sun Jun 11, 12:18:00 PM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Sorry typo.

"I try to to diminish or label people. "

I meant that I try NOT to diminish or label people.

 
At Sun Jun 11, 01:26:00 PM GMT+10, Blogger Bucko said...

Corrine-

Does...
"Caring about someone means you look out for them. It doesn't mean you ignore their destructive behavior or treat them with kid gloves so they like you."
...mean that you care about Matty and me? Is your continuous presence on our little corner of cyberspace indicative of some odd sense of affection? Are you spreading your "tough love" around these parts?

If you are truly a defender of human dignity, what are you doing with the sorry likes of that rabid, brain-damaged troll who signs "herself" as Meghan?

You have yet to explain how, precisely, you came upon The Spin Cycle. Are you a poz, black lesbian too?

Where are you from, dear? Introduce yourself...we're all waiting.

As someone well versed in the ins and outs of various social-protectio laws and organizations, have you written your complaints yet? Have the powers that be on AIDSmeds sent you a concerned response yet?

I'm waiting, Corrine, dear, with baited breath...

Bisous,
B

 
At Sun Jun 11, 02:02:00 PM GMT+10, Blogger Bucko said...

Lyds-

As always, darling, you are compassionate, witty, brilliantly on-point and, sadly, wasting grade-A material on this bunch of pathetic, sad, lonely Carrie Nation wanna-bes.

It is a sign of their tired, tiny intellects that they choose to see "glorification" where you (and so many others, those with brains) see a depiction of life, gloves off, of those of us who choose to live at the margins of respectability.

It is much easier to simply stick a label on us and judge our actions as deplorable. You see beyond stereotypes. You see that beyond the difficulties, perhaps even because of them, Matty and I persevere and thrive to best of our abilities.

As a lurker, I have no doubt that you followed at least some of my threads relating to G as they went down, both the highs and miserable lows. You also understand, I hope, that the point to this series of essays is in the GNOSIS revealed in the hejira from body to body.

I promised in my original introductary thread on AIDSmeds that this would not be a morality tale. It isn't..don't worry. I'm not gonna go all soft and gooey in part five or the epilogue. The catharsis, when finally revealed, will be at least as meaningful, with just as much shock value and resonance, as the end of part three.

Yet, I continue to hunt Mancunt looking for...what? I've already rejected an ideal candidate for someone to love me because I just couldn't summon the plausibility of returning his affection. It's probably why I've always been a slut but never a whore. I cannot fake it, dear, not even for (especially not for) money or personal gain.

I live at the very edge of everything people hold dear. When I lost my health insurance I became a slave to the state's eligibility requirements for Ryan White funding. I lost my car and with it the possibility of finding work that might provide insurance. I survive on less than I earned in 1983, unadjusted for inflation, BTW, when my rent was half of what it is today and public transport (in Boston) far superior to that available in Ft Lauderdale.

In short, my fiscal collapse is total and irrevocable, at least to my eyes. I am not an irresponsible man, but faced with few alternatives, have become a rather careless one.

I may someday blog on that, but I'm afraid that, without the thrusting pistons and champagne cumshots, I'd attract few readers.

So I remain frozen in amber, as it were. I live my life as I enjoy it, but with few alternatives for a better future. But as someone who really never thought he'd see forty, these extra years, as confused and seemingly aimless as they might be, are a true gift, and one that I plan to exploit while it's here.

As I wrote in a thread introducing myself to the new forum, I live by my own rules. The majority opinion has held me in contempt since I was in my teens, and has never really changed. Why is it any surprise that I reject conventional standards of conduct? Even if I were to mold myself 100% to societal norms, I'd never be normal anyways.

I'd love to visit LA,darling, but the $500 I live on after paying the rent every month hardly buys groceries and cigarettes.

Bisous,
B

 
At Sun Jun 11, 02:35:00 PM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Why this isn't abundantly clear after reading all that's been written is befuddling, but you never struck me as the brightest bulb. I'll explain nonetheless.

We are all friends. We organize, develop and promote HIV support groups in New York City. Some of us work directly for major ASO's in the metropolitan area, others work in social work and/or case management.

As I've stated before, I'm a social worker who deals with recovering addicts after they've graduated from Daytop's drug rehabilition program.

We are all HIV positive. I contracted it through IV drug use 20 years ago. The others through sex with men. Meg, Lisette and Cathy are lesbians. We allmet through support groups, frequent AIDSMEDS. Not all are active posters, but are members.

I don't personally have a connected care for either one of you. What I do have is broad knowledge of the the disease known as addiction, vast experience with the creme de le creme of IV drug users, and a shared sense of outrage over your deplorable racist and misogynistic remarks.

Most striking for me, and which prompted me to post when Cathy steered me to this website, is the presence of minors posting and defending individuals who enable and glorify drug behavior and unhealthy sexual practices.

As for what's been reported to AIDSMEDS, I know Lisette is well situated to do so if she chooses. I'm not as close to her as Meghan and Cathy are, so you'll have to ask them (i doubt they will give you the satisfaction of an answer, though, but give it the college try since you come across like a glutton for punishment).

That's all you are getting from me, but you can keep asking me for more information and I'll oblige by ignoring you.

I've already been more cordial dealing with you bigots than I would under any other circumstance.

Lydia lunch all those attributes you say you espouse are to be admired, but interactions with addicts, enablers, and behavior detrimental to persons which effect society beyond their person, requires different, proven, unique approaches.

All I could do was the flag the website and forward and e-mail to blogger asking them to force an age restriction or evaluation of this site. What my sisters have done, well, knowing them you'd be smart not to underestimate their reach and capabalities. It wouldn't be a cry to the moderators, but a top down inquiry.

- CeCe (Corrine)

 
At Sun Jun 11, 06:01:00 PM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

De-atropher, are you whining again because no one comments on your blog. Or should I saw blaaaaahg. Yawn.

 
At Sun Jun 11, 06:26:00 PM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Move it over to De-atropher's it could use the help//// blaaaaaaaaaaahg. Double yawn.

Bailey is Maldavian. Who is Gilroy Wisnewski? Lydia seems nice. Woho Meghan bitch slapped Bucko. Corrine referres. Where's Matty? De-atropher = strange.

 
At Mon Jun 12, 02:23:00 AM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Bucko,

You are absolutely right that no matter what you do as a homosexual person society will never approve of you. It sounds like we both gave up trying to win the approval of others long ago.

This is perhaps why I have had misgivings about Cliff, and the likes of Cliff. He may embrace white, heterosexual, judeo-christian Republican capitalists all he wants, but to them he is just an HIV positive, African American homosexual.
(And we both they use much harsher words in their descriptions of him).
No matter how much he talks the talk, sounds like them, and even votes to preserve their political and financial interests, those people detest him.

I don't think that "tough love" and the traditional approaches used in rehab programs work. Too many of these programs are shame-based and involved applying labels to people. Rehab fails more than not, because the bio-chemical and psychological components involved in addiction are not simply addressed by concepts such as "tough love" and simple routinely applied cliches.

Ann on Aidsmeds.com gives out strong advice with underlying kindness. I do not equate being "nice" with being "kind". Niceness is often spiked with dishonesty, whereas kindness tells the truth for the benefit of the other party, without causing addtional injury to an already wounded person.

You cannot insult a person out of addiction. Perhaps the underlying shame placed upon individuals is one driving force behind addiction. But I know that I do not have the answers.

Bucko, you and Matty are both survivors. I am strengthened by your courage.

Corrine, people are complicated. No person is all good or all bad. I recently watch a film called "Crash" and really liked it. The underlying message was that bigotry is complicated, and that many good people do bad things, say bad things, and behave well, badly. It also illustrated the complexity of living in a multi-cultural society.

When marginalized people attack each other, they are in fact working to keep the oppressor in power. Racism or bigotry directed at other marginalized people helps to maintain the statua quo, whether that be the subjugation of racial and ethnic minorities, women, or sexual minorities or even the poor for that matter. Solidarity is something we all need to work for.

And we need to stop using words that diminish others and reduce them to labels rather than human beings. That is why I find the word "faggot" and the "N" word I refer to say so offensive. Both are equally offensive to me, but I, not being of African descent do not think I have any right to ever use it. I have respect for members of the African American, and broader African communities. I just wish people would pay me the same respect and not use the word "faggot" even though some gay people throw it around rather carelessly.

Because the experiences told by Matty and Bucko are real depictions of the lives of people struggling with HIV and the forced poverty that surrounds it, I find their words important. Remember, the First Amendment doesn't just protect the information we want to hear or even approve of, it protects all information. Yes, there are restrictions placed on such freedoms, but no one yelled fire in a crowed theatre here. No laws have been broken. It is up to Jaser's parents to keep him off adult oriented websites.

Whew, I really did ramble didn't I?

 
At Mon Jun 12, 02:25:00 AM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Sorry for all the typos, I should proofread.

 
At Mon Jun 12, 04:15:00 AM GMT+10, Blogger Bucko said...

Lyds-
I have too little time this morning to comment with the kind of introspection and humor that your most recent post deserves.

When I return from work this evening, I'll attempt something decent.

De-Atrophier-
Part four will be published next week, doll. The working title is : "Fucking Like Cougars, Cuddling Like Kittens", but is subject to change. Rest assurred that it will balance sex and psychology in the usual blend.

CeCe-
Reading your most recent comments, a sudden clap of insight lit up my fevered and bug-addled brain that should help put the complaints of you and your "friends" into the perspective you all merit, especially the baseless charge that we at The Spin Cycle glorify or condone drugs.

I might suggest that you concentrate on the actual essays as published on the blog when drawing any conclusions regarding what we do and do not discuss here.

Drug use, about which you prattle with your usual droning monotony, is mentioned just four times, and always by me. In the most recent series of stories I've written, the quotes include:

"And what a climax! Lechero had been partying and was focused on his ass to the exclusion of his cock."
[Part one]
"Fast forward to earlier this month. After spending a week in the hospital, the bf flew off to the supportive arms of his sister in Texas. The reason for the stay on the sixth floor of Imperial Point? Severe crystal meth withdrawal. It turns out that he was something of a hot pig for vast swathes of Broward and Dade counties, even if incapable of delivering anything remotely sexual to our domestic bliss. I’d been had, and was livid, seething, reeling with betrayal and resentment. We had harsh words and end-of-the-game recriminations bellowed back and forth over the phone, and a six-month waste of my time was over, at last."
[Part one]
"But a few months previously a new tenant had moved in, a straight, blow-hard cokefiend with a loud barking dog, who was trouble coming in a black BMW."
[Part two]
"I’d done enough research on the web by then to understand what a booty bump was. The thoughts sent me off again in fresh paroxysms of agony."
[Part two]
"But at work the next day, I turned thoughts of G over in my head again and again. I had been told by several people that meth addicts can only respond sexually when under the active influence, and then preferably with fellow addicts, but the mechanics of this left me confused. If the drugs made him superhorny, then why never with me? The thought of him sharing something as sacred to me as sex with so many, at my exclusion, kept my heart racing and head pounding. I needed to find an understanding for myself, without resorting to actually smoking meth. Somehow, I felt that I’d find it on Manhunt."
[Part two]
Excluding HIV meds,nicotine, tea and poppers, the quotes listed above are the sole references to drungs from my series on barebacking.

From the archives, I located:
"But I was unwilling to give up the comfort of the home LB and I had nurtured, and JD was unwilling to get responsible. I knew that he did drugs and ran with a rough crowd. He loved me passionately but couldn’t bring himself to make a commitment, and I couldn’t bring myself to ask for one."
[JD, Guardian Angel #18]
"He had an annoying habit, however, of showing up at a bar with some improbable piece of trade, coked out of his gourd, and suggesting threesomes which the trade would find singularly unappealing. Drugs took over JD’s life, making him more impossible than ever. I’d still try and see him, but the effort was rarely rewarded, and I put him out of my head as much as I could."
[JD, Guardian Angel #18]
"Passing into the foyer, I heard Bernard’s voice coming from the bathroom, followed closely by that of Jean-Marc. The tone was hushed and intimate, not the irritated sound their conversations had had earlier that morning. Rounding the corner, I peered past the door. Bernard was standing by the sink, flicking the plastic tube of a hypodermic syringe, needle glistening."
[Bienvenue a Paris, Part one]
"This entire tale reminds me overmuch of the superinfected Tina twink, Patient X who bravely bottomed in a drug-induced gangbang in the sewers of New York until she'd managed to go from healthy to "full-blown" AIDS in a matter of months."
[Bug Chasers: Whose message?]
There are also innumerable references to beer drinking, one suggesting that a bottle of Crystal champage was consumed with dinner, and a brief reference to scotch and soda served in a pilsner glass. During one of the beer episodes, I am drunk enough to pass out mid-fuck with a man whom I profess to love (Titpig's Satisfaction).

Matty, near as I can tell, never mentions drugs at all in the various essays published on the Spin Cycle. In this comments section, I do say:
"I am glad that you experienced the narrative as I intended. One of my favorite moments of cinema, ever, was in Pulp Fiction, when Uma snorts what she thinks is coke but is, in fact, pure horse. her heart attack (and subsequent resurrection) are among the great moments of horror ever committed to celluloid."
[Mon Jun 05, 04:18:11 PM PDT]
Matty says:
"Cathy,

You know, the AIDSMEDS Living with HIV Forum is a pretty explicit place. Many threads are posted there that deal with issues of sexuality in a frank and graphic manner. Also issues such as injecting drug use and domestic violence get aired there from time to time.

If you're gonna let your darling offspring read there, you better be prepared for them to see some confronting stuff."
[Mon Jun 05, 05:26:16 PM PDT]
It is "Lisette" who starts things off with:
"I forgot about Matty the druggie. Should have known. Is he the one with the big nose and long hair? I'll check the forums."
[Mon Jun 05, 09:36:00 PM PDT]

Of course, by then "Lis" and "Megs" had already begun with the homophobic rants and raves, commenting my desireability among other chestnuts polished on the playground at fifth-grade recess.

Any allusions to drugs that Matty has made were posted (with eloquence and stunning truth, BTW) in a thread he initiated in the Living With forum, marking the anniversary of death of his ex, "the other Matty" or in his thread announcing that he had exposed himself to HepC through a careless episode involving needle-sharing.

That's what we do on AIDSmeds, doll: discuss our issues and daily dramas. As a lurker, you have assuredly noticed that it's not all posts on blood counts.

I am leaving aside for a moment your quote here...
"We are all friends. We organize, develop and promote HIV support groups in New York City. Some of us work directly for major ASO's in the metropolitan area, others work in social work and/or case management."
...except to say that anyone who works for an ASO or as a case manager and who uses such terms as "faglet" (to choose, perhaps the least of the slurs used) should really find another line of work.

You are pure bullshit, all of you. You are nothing but the rambles of a diseased mind who, for whatever reason, chooses the Spin Cycle as a cumrag for your dull, pointless and ill-rationed flatulence.

Anony-
Megs has yet to bitchslap me, darling. Her wild-eyed ravings, while amusing to read, haven't connected once. They are too far into the realm of absurdity to be meaningful to any of us here.

Ciao, all- I'm off to work now!

Bisous,
b

 
At Mon Jun 12, 07:23:00 AM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

**belly laughs** @ faglet.

Lighten up Buckles.

**belly laughs** @ Maldavian. Asshat Maldavia is the fictional town in Dynasty where Catherine Oxenberg got married and then a shooting massacre occured (finale season 5?).**belly laughs**

I think you meant to say Bailey is Mongolian.

 
At Mon Jun 12, 08:20:00 AM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Bailey is Aztecian. Cliff is a Republican? He says he always votes Democratic. He's more center-left than far far far far left like Buckles.

 
At Mon Jun 12, 09:12:00 AM GMT+10, Blogger Matty the Damned said...

Well, what busy little bees our critics have been in my absence!

So let's see, we've still got Meghan and the gorgons prattling on about racism. I was waiting for the Klan Hood comments to turn up. I'm surprised that references to the KKK didn't appear earlier, but given the manifest lack of intelligence displayed by the League of Decency I guess it took a while to dawn on them. Speaking of the League, where is Lisette, that power-broker employee of Smart + Strong? Her silence is notable.

You see the the problem that Megsy, Corrine the Community College trained social worker and the rest of the Chorus of the Righteous have is that calling people racist just because you don't like what they say is an invalid response. What these tedious people cite as examples of mine and the Buckette's outrageous bigotry is nothing of the sort. It's simply the use of razor sharp invective, carefully honed to hit our opponents where they live. If you don't like being skewered in debate, you should probably stay away from blogs written by Queer Radicals. What is notable is that the best our combatants can come up with by way of response is:

Racist!
Bigot!
Faggot!
Druggie!
Australian!
Ugly!
Klans Man!


over and over and over again. Well, as they old saying goes:

"Blessed are they who run round in circles, for they shall be known as the wheels."

But they'll never win an argument. Here or anywhere else.

Moving right along, I note the return of Pussy-Whipped Pete, the Pervert of New York. Your display of solidarity and loyalty is admirable Pete! It really is. I'm touched in all sorts of places by your nobility. You're an example to us all. An example of what, I can't say for sure.

So there's a flurry of outraged PM's at AIDSMEDS is there? The members are in a furore and Buckles and I are steadily depleting our store of good will by our astonishingly witty and tenacious stand against the prudes here on our blog? Funny, the forums themselves are silent on this issue and none of these alleged missives have come my way. Not a peep. I suspect that the vast majority of members of the AIDSMEDS Forums are getting on with their lives not fretting over an erotic article posted on a gay blog.

As for Clifton (yup that's his full first name) well, I understand that he generally votes Democratic, but he doesn't really like it. Dear Cliffie's a conservative at heart. Poor lad, he's SO conflicted. He so WANTS to be a souless, brutal Republican. For the record Clifton voted for the Republican in the last NYC Mayoral Elections, so I guess he's making progress.

Keep bitching ladies! You clearly have little else in your lives. I'm glad the Spin Cycle gives you something to do. :-)

MtD

 
At Mon Jun 12, 12:44:00 PM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Bucko certainly set the record straight regarding the drug references.

It seems that our concerned parents went off a bit half-cocked!

 
At Mon Jun 12, 01:46:00 PM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

blaaaaaaaaahg...

Name suggestion: "The Lost Boys".

Burnout dopehead is undeniably the biggest chauvinistic KKK bigot I've seen in awhile. The feeble nonsensical explanations are TO die FOR.

If being ignored is a sure fire sign of support, then DOPEHEAD and DOGFACE must have zillions of AM friends who have their back.

Boricua! Boricua!

 
At Mon Jun 12, 02:11:00 PM GMT+10, Blogger Matty the Damned said...

blaaaaaaaaahg...

Name suggestion: "The Lost Boys".

Burnout dopehead is undeniably the biggest chauvinistic KKK bigot I've seen in awhile. The feeble nonsensical explanations are TO die FOR.

If being ignored is a sure fire sign of support, then DOPEHEAD and DOGFACE must have zillions of AM friends who have their back.

Boricua! Boricua!


Matty the Damned is not being ignored either dear. I'm still receiving PM's and posting in threads and sharing comments at AIDSMEDS, just as I've always done. It's just that no-one's talking about your issues there love.

We do love the reference to the inhabitants of Puerto Rico prior to the arrival of the Spanish, however. We're not sure what it has to do with the issues raised here, but it's nice nonetheless.

Kisses,

MtD

 
At Mon Jun 12, 02:26:00 PM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

LOL @ DOPEHEAD and DOGFACE

Tee hee hee.....

 
At Mon Jun 12, 02:27:00 PM GMT+10, Blogger Bucko said...

Well, Lechero is Puerto Rican, so I guess there's the oblique reference.

B
(Who is not suggesting that Lechero actually posted that anonymous comment. He has more balls)

 
At Mon Jun 12, 02:34:00 PM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

ROTFLMAO @ Bucko certainly set the record straight regarding the drug references.

Alternate reality for suuuuuuure dudes.

Blog Name: "The Deadbeat Diaries of Dopehead and Dogface".

ROTFLMAO X 2 @ Dopehead and Dogface!

Ruff! Ruff! Ruff!

 
At Mon Jun 12, 02:37:00 PM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

LOL X 3 @ Bailey is Mongolian

You mean Maldavian!

 
At Mon Jun 12, 02:46:00 PM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Aaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh...alliteration.

Classic & Hysterical & Accurate.

Boricua! Boricua!

Go Dopehead Go Dopehead!

Go Dogface! Go Dogface!

Bailey is Chechen not Mongolian.

He's a Chechen Rebel.

grrrrrr...

 
At Mon Jun 12, 03:59:00 PM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dogface. Cha Cha Cha.

Dopehead. Cha Cha Cha.

Moreno! Boricua! Moreno! Boricua!

Cha Cha Cha...

Am I the only one that feels like I need a bath soaked in Lysol after I post here?

 
At Mon Jun 12, 06:23:00 PM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Bucko as Dogface

Matty as Dopehead

The Excellent Adventures of Dopehead and Dogface. Excellent man. Totally kewl.

This place is crazy kewl funny. I've never seen two people filleted, eviscorated and totally annihalated to the the realm of such patheticism as poor Matty and Bucko.

- skips

 
At Mon Jun 12, 11:27:00 PM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Skip, get a dictionary and do a spell check.

 
At Tue Jun 13, 03:33:00 AM GMT+10, Blogger Bucko said...

Lyds-

Thanks for your patience, doll, in allowing me time to respond to your latest post. It deserved reflection on my part, as you deserve nothing short than me at my very best.

"You are absolutely right that no matter what you do as a homosexual person society will never approve of you. It sounds like we both gave up trying to win the approval of others long ago."
I grew up in a blue-collar, working class suburb just south of Boston. It was predominantly Catholic, and forms a vital link in what's called the "Irish Riviera". This term, while innocent enough sounding, merits a few words of explanation:

Boston is known around the world for its cultural riches.
*Music: The BSO & Pops, two music conservatories, Berklee College of Music; A world-class local "alternative" scene that roared in the late 70s, early 80s;
*Education: Harvard, MIT, BC, BU, Tufts and over forty other colleges within ten miles of the state house dome;
*Medicine: simply the best that the world has to offer;
*Architecture: Bullfinch, Richardson, Olmstead, Gropius, for just a taste; Did you know that the only example of Le Corbusier work is in Cambridge or that Phillip Johnson and Henry Russell Hitchcock coined the term "International Style" to describe modernist architecture in the Mies-inspired house he built for himself off Brattle Street while attending Harvard in early 30s?;
*Literary & Publishing: Too many to recount;
*Art: The largest collection of Impressionist & Post-Impressionist paintings outside Paris is in the Museum of Fine Art on Huntington Ave, not the Met in NYC; The Gardner Museum has the largest private collection of Renaissance art anywhere in the world. It was amassed by a woman in the late 19th century and early 20th;
Etc, etc, etc.

Historically, it is known as a conservative place, but with a rich vein of avant-garde social liberalism. If you recognize the modern Democratic Party as a collection of urban interests, thank John Adams, not Thomas Jefferson. The first subway in North America was built in Boston (before New York, or even the Metro in Paris). Abolitionism started in Boston, and the largest population of freemen in the US until the Civil War was in Boston (where slavery was never condoned, ever). The first city to mark the anniversary of the Stonewall Riots was Boston, on year after they took place in NYC. We Bostonians have much to be proud of.

However, there is another side of the coin which is rarely discussed but part of the reality of living in the Hub, especially growing up there. The most vile, ignorant, hateful and violent force of reactionary bigotry that I've ever encountered comes from the Irish community of Boston, centered mainly in South Boston. When I was a kid, South Boston was a notoriously poor place known for its cold-water flats and brazen narrow-mindedness. During the brou-ha-ha of "forced" busing and integration in the 70s (twenty years AFTER such things were done in the South, BTW), the riots, the violence and the unashamed bigotry that poured from Southie dismayed decent folks around the world (Google Louise Day Hicks or ROAR for a better picture).

Despite a certain amount of gentrification that has changed the entire flavor of Boston (for both good and bad) in the last twenty-five years, Southie remains something of a backwater and a bad joke. The single largest network of support for the IRA is not in Dublin or Cork, but in Southie. And the recent Supreme Court case regarding the St Patrick's Day parade and a small group of Irish gay/lesbians shows the lengths they will go to keep their traditions and institutions "pure" not just from outside sources, but from internal sources with which they disagree or of which they disapprove.

The expression "Irish Riviera" is a relic from white flight, when many of Boston's inner-city neighborhoods changed demographics and became majority-minority within as few as five years. Seething with resentment and racist bile, these transplants settled along the South Shore of Massachusetts Bay, relocating in old Yankee towns that had gone a bit to seed during the Depression and where property values were so low that they could afford to live.

I am not Irish, not a bit. My heritage is entirely New England Swamp Yankee except for my maternal grandfather, who grew up in the French-Canadian slums of Brewer, Maine and who was, essentially, "sold" to a logging camp at the age of seven by his drunken mother, who, as a single parent, found her youngest son too great a burden to her social life and drinking schedule.

My parents, who are somewhat dim in many areas, chose to move to a town in the Irish Riviera in 1970, after my dad was relocated from Manchester, NH to Boston. Up until then I'd lived a pseudo-rural, small-town, relatively carefree childhood in southern NH. I had to adjust very quickly to a new, more urban reality. I have described the town I grew up in as a "chain-link jungle", and it was one of the first exits off the highway where one encountered more grass than pavement. But the population was provocative, competitive and utterly alien to my experience.

I learned very quickly that I'd never, ever fit in, nor that it was likely that I'd ever find friends in such a place. My various adolescent transformations shall be discussed in a future blog post. What all this verbose rambling is supposed to do is provide context and background.

This population of white-flight, inner-city toughs and thugs used to harass me with violence (threatened and actual) unless I conformed to their bigoted, narrow-minded, dead-end looser values. I never did and suffered both the physical and emotional brunt of being a pariah.

Equally, my parents and extended family offered very little by way of support. My dad was, among other things, president of his senior class, president of his student council, voted most likely to succeed (and most popular, along with "best eyes") and captain of his football team. My mom was a majorette. Both were stunningly beautiful.

But both of them have struggled with alcohol and prescription-drug dependency as long as I can (almost) remember. Both were (and to a certain extent, still are) very compulsive sexually. I can never remember either one actually practicing fidelity within their marriage. When their marriage finally collapsed in 1975, my mother began a ravenous sampling of males (man & boys) throughout the South Shore, equaling if not exceeding my experiences on Mancunt. Everybody (and I do mean EVERYBODY) knew who she was, and many had fucked her. This, of course, hardly boosted my popularity.

My parents were also very conservative Republicans, of the Goldwater and John Birch Society type.

I was a triple failure in their eyes. From a very early age, I was passionate about reading (and read some things from my uncle's bookshelf that were hardly appropriate for a small boy, such as Myra Breckenridge at age 12, for instance), was a fat kid (for which I can thank my big nipples and strong legs) and had terrible eyesight (big, black plastic glasses, crew-cut, etc). I was very much an ugly duckling until I slimmed down in late grammar school following my one and only growth spurt. I attained my adult height in seventh grade (5'6). This eliminated me from any possibility of competitive sports, even if I had been so inclined (and I wasn't). I was also a fey, hyperemotional sissyboy.

So my parents had an intellectual sissy given to interior pursuits for their only son. This was bad enough, but when I began espousing leftist political concepts, it was all too much. Any pride they had in me evaporated, any emotional support was withdrawn. I was kept within arm's distance primarily for abuse, which was sustained and often brutal.

In a way, this abandonment gave me the courage to explore my options much more fully than would otherwise have been possible. But I never really had acceptance until, kinda by accident, I found a group of like-wise minded misfits scattered throughout several surrounding towns. It was within the comfort of this clique that I developed the character and persona that has served me so well as an adult. But it is telling that none of us had any kind of support network or friends of any kind outside the group until we began meeting adults around the age of 17.

"This is perhaps why I have had misgivings about Cliff, and the likes of Cliff. He may embrace white, heterosexual, Judeo-Christian Republican capitalists all he wants, but to them he is just an HIV positive, African American homosexual.
(And we both they use much harsher words in their descriptions of him)."
Cliffie's just one of the milder examples of this phenomenon, baby. I don't judge him harshly because he gets what he needs from his environs and associates. Besides, he's a gay accountant, doll. He can't help himself.

"No matter how much he talks the talk, sounds like them, and even votes to preserve their political and financial interests, those people detest him."
Alas, there are enablers of social-aspiration much as there are co-dependants to addiction.

"I don't think that "tough love" and the traditional approaches used in rehab programs work. Too many of these programs are shame-based and involved applying labels to people. Rehab fails more than not, because the bio-chemical and psychological components involved in addiction are not simply addressed by concepts such as "tough love" and simple routinely applied clichés...You cannot insult a person out of addiction. Perhaps the underlying shame placed upon individuals is one driving force behind addiction. But I know that I do not have the answers."
My dad's a classic example of this. He's been trying to work with the thin gruel and formulaic mumbo-jumbo of AA for over thirty-five years. His failure feeds his sense of self-loathing, which fuels his addiction in a never-ending cycle of self-flagellation and escapism.

"Ann on Aidsmeds.com gives out strong advice with underlying kindness. I do not equate being "nice" with being "kind". Niceness is often spiked with dishonesty, whereas kindness tells the truth for the benefit of the other party, without causing additional injury to an already wounded person"

It's funny you should choose to differentiate between "nice" and "kind".
I have always loathed the term "nice". It is the lowest-possible denomination of a compliment, reserved for anything or anyone for whom anything greater would be an exaggeration.
Brava, Bella!

BTW- Ann is something of a heroine for me. She keeps her cool when lesser mortals would begin screaming. It was Ann to whom I turned when seeking advice on whether or not to link this current series directly through a thread in the Living forum. She went to bat for me, and I shall always appreciate her generous spirit for her response.

"Bucko, you and Matty are both survivors. I am strengthened by your courage."
Thanks, baby. Please take you interaction with us into your heart and continue to reach out to those with whom you might otherwise not associate socially.

"Corrine, people are complicated. No person is all good or all bad...When marginalized people attack each other, they are in fact working to keep the oppressor in power. Racism or bigotry directed at other marginalized people helps to maintain the status quo, whether that be the subjugation of racial and ethnic minorities, women, or sexual minorities or even the poor for that matter. Solidarity is something we all need to work for.

And we need to stop using words that diminish others and reduce them to labels rather than human beings. That is why I find the word "faggot" and the "N" word I refer to say so offensive. Both are equally offensive to me, but I, not being of African descent do not think I have any right to ever use it. I have respect for members of the African American, and broader African communities. I just wish people would pay me the same respect and not use the word "faggot" even though some gay people throw it around rather carelessly."

Brilliant, sweetie. I hope you are cutting and pasting this for your archives. It all bears preservation.

"Because the experiences told by Matty and Bucko are real depictions of the lives of people struggling with HIV and the forced poverty that surrounds it, I find their words important. Remember, the First Amendment doesn't just protect the information we want to hear or even approve of, it protects all information. Yes, there are restrictions placed on such freedoms, but no one yelled fire in a crowed theatre here. No laws have been broken."

Indeed...Matty and I are simply recounting tales from our experiences and editorializing on the diverse states of society as we find them. We also publish disclaimers/warnings before inviting anyone over to read them.

"It is up to Jaser's parents to keep him off adult oriented websites."
I am choosing to not discuss Jaser or his parents on The Spin Cycle, except to say that I support his struggles as a gay teen, and can only marvel at his courage. Jaser is, without a doubt, the bravest person I know, one of the bravest I've ever met. I love him as the nephew I've never had, and will protect him to whatever degree possible for me sitting here in front of a computer in SoFla. My affection for him has never veered into inappropriate and never will. In this tough world, it is essential that he understand that some people are more interested in his mind (and its development) than his ass, which doesn't interest me in the least.

"Whew, I really did ramble didn't I?"
That's why we love you, snookums, and we do love you.

Speaking of love, could you set up a dummy e-mail account through Google or Yahoo so that we (Matty and I) might have a way to contact you directly without this clumsy mechanism of comments-posting? We were both discussing how much we'd appreciate the chance to chat off-boards with you, darling.

B
(Who doesn’t find LL verbose in the least, especially after having written all this)

 
At Tue Jun 13, 04:45:00 AM GMT+10, Blogger Bucko said...

"Am I the only one that feels like I need a bath soaked in Lysol after I post here?"

That, darling, is kinda the point. I've never claimed to be giving anyone a how-to lesson in anything. My tales of debauchery serve to enlighten the gentle reader as to who I am, what I think and what choose to do. This is isn't about anything other than my contradictory quest for gnosis and ass, in equal parts.

If what you read enflames you in a positive way, continue reading. If what you read here bothers you unduly, refrain.

Thanks, though, for the comment. We love those...

Bisous,
B

Oh! BTW-

"Anonymous said...
Bailey is Aztecian. Cliff is a Republican? He says he always votes Democratic. He's more center-left than far far far far left like Buckles."

Thanks for the compliment, Anony. Although you might have read me as left of anything you'd consider mainstream, I'm actually an Anarchist.

I disdain any label, left/right/center...whatever. Anarchists don't respect the institutions enough to espouse any designation. I am also not a joiner.

I find it the only political position possible for someone who is marginalized to the degree I am. It's also a convenient tag for someone such as myself who resists labels as quasi-fascist tools for simple and weak minds.

MtD holds different opinions than me spiritually, and I hold different opinions than him politically. At the end of the day, such parsing counts for precious little. We arrive at the same place irrespective of the paths we've chosen, and embrace each other's quirky particulars as further evidence of each other's brilliant intellect.

Our philosophies come from years of experience and reflection. So what if he doesn't recognize spirits? To me, May Day is just another spring morning (although am I the only one who remembers making gorgeous Maybaskets out of our lunch-time milk cartons?).

Our love transcends any minor variations in specifics, dear.

Des gros bisous,
B

 
At Tue Jun 13, 04:46:00 AM GMT+10, Blogger Bucko said...

Sorry for the never ending posts, Mancunt's slow today...and I haven't been laid in almost 48 hours.

:-D
B

 
At Tue Jun 13, 06:01:00 AM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I am not going to quote anyone...'cause frankly it's boring. Let me remind all the name callers of that old fable about knowing it was a snake (and I mean snake in the nicest way boys) when you brought it home. If Buck's writing bothers or disturbs...why do you bother? I think you are familiar with how he writes and where he is going with the story. Did you think this was going to be the chapter where he found god,settled down and married Matty? Don't expect happy endings dears.

One more thing...please don't use the child as a shield for your outrage. Y'all could give a rat's ass about that boy. If you cared you would never call him names,no matter what he wrote. I see it lurking just under the surface,but you won't say it...mo's=pedophile.

Corrine I can respect your opinions whether I disagree or not. You have the courage of your convictions.

Ms. Lunch a pleasure as always and Buck-Buck you keep those never ending posts coming.

Aunty Doxie

 
At Tue Jun 13, 06:28:00 AM GMT+10, Blogger Bucko said...

Daschy-

I love the "snake" bit, baby. I'd never heard it, but can follow the concept.

The posts are gonna be silent for a bit, sweetness...Bucko's expecting guests momentarily.

 
At Tue Jun 13, 06:31:00 AM GMT+10, Blogger Bucko said...

"Did you think this was going to be the chapter where he found god,settled down and married Matty? Don't expect happy endings dears."

MtD and I exist on an alternate plane of reality, snookums. But finding God and getting married would be too much of a horror tale even for us. Neither of us believes in marriage, period, let alone gay marriage.

Loving you and that little wiggling tail-

B

 
At Tue Jun 13, 10:48:00 AM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Bucko you outdid yourself with the longest, most disoriented, boring comment to date.

Have you been injecting some of dopehead's happy juice?

 
At Tue Jun 13, 11:17:00 AM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

And you read every last word Anon! What kind of juice do you inject or ingest for that matter.

 
At Tue Jun 13, 11:41:00 AM GMT+10, Blogger Bucko said...

Hey, Moesha-

Welcome aboard The Spin Cycle, baby.

You're not afraid of Uncle Buckles, now are you?

Presumably you DID read it, and learned a bit more about me in the process. Tell me, dear, what brings you here? I'm always interested in learning a bit more about my readers/fans.

Bisous,
B

 
At Tue Jun 13, 01:44:00 PM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hey Bucko,

Just got in from a long day. Enjoyed everything you wrote, and will comment after I get some sleep. You, Matty, and Aunty Doxie can reach me at demarcoscottt@yahoo.com.

Talk to you soon.

 
At Tue Jun 13, 02:04:00 PM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Buckles is paying people to post with black sounding names so he can repair his burnished reputation.

No self-respecting African American would post in support of Buckles the bigot.

 
At Tue Jun 13, 02:24:00 PM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Moesha! Methinks someone just finshed watching late night UPN. Brandy girl, is that you?

Welcome and we hope you can stay.

Matty invites you to bring along you "food-stamp queen posse" if you like. Also you are free to park your "Pontiac" here when you finish your "drive by shooting" with "babie-girl."

Bucko also welcomes "Shequira and Latrina" to join in also, when your done with your "Jehovah's witness" meeting.

Welcome to the land of bigotry!

 
At Tue Jun 13, 02:27:00 PM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Good point Daschy.

 
At Tue Jun 13, 02:38:00 PM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Using Daschie's name when you aren't Daschie isn't very classy.

Pete, go back to Americablog. Aravosis misses you.

 
At Tue Jun 13, 02:40:00 PM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Skippy, pete, Tom, Cathy, Meghan, Lisette, are all sounding like SYBIL to me.

 
At Wed Jun 14, 01:20:00 AM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Wow,that must have been some meeting. Sorry I missed it. You mean to tell me you had the whole crew together and you could not come up with any new fag+ugly word combo's? You are slipping ladies (lady) and I expect better.
I must admit I have slept through most of this yawn-fest,but when does the shut down happen? Remember you promised...and a lady never goes back on her word. Oh I know...betcha all the Am mod's are on vacation. You would think this outrage would be their top priority. Maybe they are way too busy trying to decide if they should eliminate the word "newbie" from the AIDSmed vocabulary. Boy,I sure would hate to have their job.
Hey,no "Save the Children" rant? Sally Struthers is going to be so disappointed. C'mon Cathy you are slipping.
Next time I check in, this site better be down....you....you....poo-poo head!

Aunty Doxie

ps Lyds quit using logic...you are such a butt-face.

 
At Wed Jun 14, 05:41:00 AM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Megs darling you promised you were going to shut this site down. You promisedyoupromisedyoupromised. How am I to believe anything you say? When I want name calling I'll take my boyfriend to the mall. I'm beginning not to believe you. Get 'er done girl...get 'er done. Make Aunty Doxie believe again....

Yours

 
At Wed Jun 14, 08:26:00 AM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

It's too much fun watching the dynamic dopehead dogface duo dig themsleves deeper and deeper into a hole to ever want this place shutdown.

 
At Wed Jun 14, 12:35:00 PM GMT+10, Blogger Matty the Damned said...

Daschund I would love to see where I said I promisedpromisedpromised to shut down this site.

It was Lisette who said it, but the mistake is easily made dear. You're all just different heads on the same tired body. Not unlike a hyrdra, but much less scary.

Kisses,

MtD

 
At Wed Jun 14, 01:13:00 PM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Oh Megsy you are so cute when you are angry. You must have experienced harsh toilet training as a baby. I sorry if I lied...me must have got you confused with the others. Let me know when you run out of poopy words...my three year old nephew can teach you some new ones. C'mon Megsters admit it you love this blog site. You are a ca-ca head and a meanie and I hate you. Nuh-uh,Bucko is not uglier than me.

Aunty Ugoxie

 
At Wed Jun 14, 01:38:00 PM GMT+10, Blogger Bucko said...

Daschy-

"dachshund said...
...Nuh-uh,Bucko is not uglier than me."

Oh, baby, I'm MUCH more repulsive than you, lamby. As your host, I simply wouldn't have it any other way.

B
(Who is tired from all the fucking he did yesterday and is already planning a blog about his various exploits over the last several days. It promises some old friends, new buds, and a twist so shocking, it left MtD running for her smelling-salts)

 
At Wed Jun 14, 03:32:00 PM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Looks like you're making friends left and right fellas. I feel sorry for you fools. I really do.

- skips

 
At Wed Jun 14, 06:23:00 PM GMT+10, Blogger Matty the Damned said...

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Originally posted by anonymous:

**********
Posting covertly.

Trackback IP check confirms.

Amateurs.

Spreading wart infected HPV.

Lost depraved skank.

Sociopathic HPV wart dick infecting Florida spreading cancer.

You are vile and depraved.

You're welcome to be back.
**********


MtD

 
At Wed Jun 14, 11:19:00 PM GMT+10, Blogger Matty the Damned said...

As a Spin Cycle Administrator I have determined that the conversation in this comment thread has gone on long enough. Spin Cycle Commentary Policy has been breached on three occasions.

Therefore I am closing this thread to comment for 72 hours from the date/time stamp of this message.

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At Sat Jun 17, 04:28:00 PM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Can someone point me to the Spin Cycle commentary policy or is this another make-believe Matty moment?

Did everyone see Dingoboy slam down Matty over at the Living with Forum? Poor Matty looks like the pathetic slob he is.

 
At Sat Jun 17, 05:33:00 PM GMT+10, Blogger Matty the Damned said...

Can someone point me to the Spin Cycle commentary policy or is this another make-believe Matty moment?

Did everyone see Dingoboy slam down Matty over at the Living with Forum? Poor Matty looks like the pathetic slob he is.


We published a policy on comments way back. If you want to read it, go trawling through our archives.

Oh SnaP!!!

don't bother matty. this discussion is for grown ups. please do not sidetrack or derail this serious topic. - Dingoboy

All the people I talk to over their think Matty is a fucked up asshole anyway. Good for Dingo!

Cat


Ah Cathy,

It amazes me that you have all this time to spend on the internet, given the awesome burden parenthood must place on you. Let me guess, you're waiting up for the kids to come home from working the frat party right? I suppose someone's gotta pay for Momma's malt liquor.

Don't worry about the Dingo dear. That booze sodden airhead twink has never managed a decent one-liner in her 34 miserable years.

MtD

 
At Sat Jun 17, 06:14:00 PM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

There is no commentary policy. It's predictable Matty taking himself and this stupid blaaaahg way too seriously.

Malt liquor yum yum.

 
At Sat Jun 17, 08:06:00 PM GMT+10, Blogger Matty the Damned said...

There is no commentary policy. It's predictable Matty taking himself and this stupid blaaaahg way too seriously.

Malt liquor yum yum.


But you're always posting here babe! How could we not take it seriously?

MtD

 
At Sat Jun 17, 11:14:00 PM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Pull out your butt-plugs and let the games begin.

Do you really read the inane gibberish dingodork posts? The boy has serious self-esteem issues. How much cheap white wine does it take for him to get up the courage to try and "read" someone? If dingo is your standard bearer you really are a pathetic lot. Do you really think he needs to be asking why his "boyfriends" cheat on him? I mean "really".

 
At Sun Jun 18, 12:57:00 AM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I have to agree with anon. Bailey is the most pathetic person posting on Aidsmeds.com. He has constant mood swings and emotional outbursts. He lashes out stupidly, Ann puts him in his place, and he quickly starts licking ass to save face. He is pathetic.

The way he attacked the new blogperson Shawn has just so pathetic. He is threatened because he isn't the only "boi" blogger (Bailey fancies himself a twink).

I absoluetely loved when Strongman ripped "Dingoperson" a new one.

Bailey is always a supreme asshole on the "Fears" forum. Others are bitchy at times, but they provided actual substance in their answers. Bailey provides nothing but catty fluff.

Bailey hates cheaters, but was a huge cheater, blowing guys in the bathroom to meet his "emotional" needs. Yeah, getting your throat stuffed on a toilet was something the little stale twinkie did to get his sexual needs met. I love how he blames his ex for not providing him with enough attention. I am sure his ex was tired of his queenie ass drama.

And the biotches who are attacking Brent on his looks need to take a real look at Bailey. The last time I saw a face like that it was raining and the rats were running out of the sewer. Bailey is bitter, unattractive, not very bright, and a hypocrite.

I do love the way he cannot pry himself away from the bottle long enough to deliver a boring video blahg. Sucking down the booze, and
wondering why his much needed psychotropic meds aren't doing the job.

Oh, and when he constantly says that it is a "turn on" to think of infecting a negative guy, he really makes me want to puke. Is this a way to meet your infinite emotional needs you aging twinkie Bailey.

Then he wants to say that the gay community has no morals. Fucking gift-giver wannabe.

No one could ever fill the hole that is Bailey, and who would want to.

 
At Sun Jun 18, 01:06:00 AM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

On a recent thread Dingo-dildo-dorkperson said"

".the idea of barebacking a neggie is hot (to me) since it's 'forbidden fruit.' Would I? I hope not. Should I? Definitely not. Might I? Havent' been faced with that situation. The psychological allure works both ways... Course, I think about murdering my bosses all the time... but i don't."

Yeah, you "ladies" are upset at what Brent does with other HIV positive people, but Bailey is a gift-giver wannabe and you have no problem with that. Also, he thinks about murdering his bosses all the time.

Someone should really keep an eye on him, there is an epidemic of people who come to work with guns and kill people. Bailey is one sick little fucker.

Matty has firmly stood against the kind of sexual behaviors Bailey Borderline rat-faced dork dreams about.

Oh, and I am so sick of Bailey calling everyone who does not agree with his whiney little needy ass a "troll" when he looks like one of those little plastic troll dolls himself.

 
At Sun Jun 18, 01:33:00 AM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Anon, I agree. The last thing I will write about Dingbat (great!) is this:

Bitter Bailey wrote:

"nobody liked me.... most thought i turned him gay. i didn't"

No Bailey, you didn't turn him gay. I am sure that when he looked at you, all he saw was pure pussy. And "str8" men just love da pussy!

I am sure there were many reasons that no one liked you.

 
At Sun Jun 18, 11:24:00 AM GMT+10, Blogger Matty the Damned said...

Poor Dingbat!

It amuses me no end to watch her stagger around the AIDSMEDS Forums like some ageing drunken twink in a gay bar. All spelling errors and state school grammar. She just reeks of cheap wine and regret.

Similarly it amuses me to know that I scare the living whatsits right out of her. You can hear her knees knocking when I deign to post in one of her declasse threads.

Well, you can hear her knees knocking when they're not behind her ears.

MtD

 
At Sun Jun 18, 03:00:00 PM GMT+10, Blogger Bucko said...

My my my...

Take a day off and the whole place gets dishier than a Crate & Barrel clearance outlet!

For the record, I rarely discuss my personal dislikes for anyone on an open forum. Alls I'll say is that, in a raging fire, I should hope that someone would remember to grab the dog before the Frascati. But if hopes were inches, my dick would reach around the block...

Now, once again, I find myself reminding our gentle readers that this specific thread is about me and my latest installment of "Deep Inside Mancunt, or Titpig's Adventures in Barebacking".

It has been my distinctly unpleasant experience to be hit upon while online by guys who either insist that they are neg, or that they don't know, don't care, and have had twenty loads deposited up their asses since Tuesday, most presumably poz.

Some of these guys post extremely attractive profile pix, most claim to be quite young. I'm not sure what their real game is all about. If they are lying, then it takes fetish to a place even I, titpig fisttop extraordinaire, wouldn't attempt to explain. If they are sincere (and at least one of the guys seems totally, frighteningly so), then they should understand that with all the cuts in Ryan White funding, psychiatric services are getting harder and harder to find. When the cold morning of a poz diagnosis finally arrives, I'll pass them a roll of toilet paper to whipe their eyes and asses, as the squirts won't be far behind and the tears will most certainly flow as soon as the latest bump of Tina wears off.

I am many many things (depraved is a compliment, after all), but a bug-thrower? Are you insane? How many friends/lovers/fuckbuddies/coworkers/mentors must one lose before the concept of gift-giving becomes as atrocious as poisoning a well or speeding up to hit a bum crossing the street?

Those who know me well, who have read more than two or three of my threads, know that I unwittingly infected my ex (the condom broke) back in 1995. The guilt drove me to such despair that I tolerated his outbursts, occasional arrests, three stays in detox (which, BTW, were wastes of everybody'd time), a lumbar fusion (bad enough)that he broke in a drugged-up fall down the stairs (infinitely worse) and a weight gain of over 150 lbs!

By the time I'd finally walked out, he had taken to associating with the ratboy streetwalkers that infested a stretch of downtown Ft Lauderdale not for from our home. Knowing him as well as I do, if he copped to conversations with such vermin (which he did), then only the higher power (which he refused to even look for) could truly report on what actually took place. My ex was too pilled to remember, I am sure. But the absurd, improbable excuses of how his truck got dented or how he came to spend untold thousands were never really credible.

His final descent is worthy of a Steven King miniseries. It's no wonder that I wound up with the likes of G...

B
(Who never took enough notes and has blocked out large pieces of that puzzle)

 
At Sun Jun 18, 03:51:00 PM GMT+10, Anonymous Anonymous said...

My dear little Buck-Buck. I am so glad you are back. I really missed you. Since you are the perverse captain of this sick little ship I am glad to see you are trying to get it back on course. I'm bored with the morality thread over at the AM,tedious,so tedious. I do have a question...was I sleeping when becoming positive became fashionable? Tell me it is just the drugs talking. Is it a South Beach thing or the lower east side? Aunty Doxie has been around and done "everthing" but this I just don't get. I guess it takes all kinds.
Bon Voyage,
Aunty Doxie

 
At Sun Jun 18, 06:07:00 PM GMT+10, Blogger Matty the Damned said...

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As usual, further bitching, moaning and complaining about how racist/drug-fucked/sexist we are can be sent to:

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. . . but don't expect us to give a shit.

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MtD

 
At Thu Jun 29, 08:31:00 AM GMT+10, Blogger Matty the Damned said...

Given the new regime of comment moderation now in operation here at the Spin Cycle, I am re-opening this article for comments.

MtD

 

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